Goodbye, 2023
Jan. 1st, 2024 03:35 amEyyyy, it says I have a 496 day streak. That's a perfect number!
It also says it's Sunday, December 31st. That's...not as true, and it's one of the few days of the year where I feel it actually matters to have a midnight cron instead of 6AM. But I didn't write my words earlier, so I'm just gonna write some end-of-year words now, and that'll be fine.
2023 was, on the macro level, a shitshow of a year. Covid is still a problem. Anti-trans sentiment and laws are still a problem. Guns are still a problem. The multiple horrific wars in other places are still a problem. Unchecked horrific capitalism is still a problem. Lotta fuckin' problems 'round these parts is what I'm saying.
But for the first time in thirteen years (the prior was in 2010) Greykell hosted a New Year's Party in Maryland. That was not a problem. It was sorta the exact opposite of a problem! It was pretty fucking awesome, all told!
And because it's been thirteen years since I've seen a lot of these people, it was nice to be able to give the potted summary of my life and say that, on the personal level...my life is actually really fucking great. I love my job, even though it's exhausting and admin are buggin'. My house-family is deeply beloved to me. I have really good hobbies that make me really happy. I've been playing a weekly RPG for the first time in my life and we even finished a campaign.
And I have a whole mess of loved ones, from partners to comets to friends to family to my community, all the beloved people who make my life shine. I am freakishly lucky, to have so many amazing people around me. It's been really splendid this year, with my increased trips to Maryland, to get to see more of those people on the regular.
My brain is still a whole monster of a mess, and I can't in good conscience say it's ~getting better~ but I can say every year I learn more about how to handle it. I'm going into 2024 armed with structures, plans, ideas, abilities. I will keep writing things down on my todo list and trying even to do them.
The macro level is really bad, and I'd be a fucking liar if I said that stuff doesn't affect me, doesn't grind me down quietly, a little more each day.
But there's a lot of good in my life too. Thanks to y'all, who're such a part of it. I love you.
~Sor
MOOP!
It also says it's Sunday, December 31st. That's...not as true, and it's one of the few days of the year where I feel it actually matters to have a midnight cron instead of 6AM. But I didn't write my words earlier, so I'm just gonna write some end-of-year words now, and that'll be fine.
2023 was, on the macro level, a shitshow of a year. Covid is still a problem. Anti-trans sentiment and laws are still a problem. Guns are still a problem. The multiple horrific wars in other places are still a problem. Unchecked horrific capitalism is still a problem. Lotta fuckin' problems 'round these parts is what I'm saying.
But for the first time in thirteen years (the prior was in 2010) Greykell hosted a New Year's Party in Maryland. That was not a problem. It was sorta the exact opposite of a problem! It was pretty fucking awesome, all told!
And because it's been thirteen years since I've seen a lot of these people, it was nice to be able to give the potted summary of my life and say that, on the personal level...my life is actually really fucking great. I love my job, even though it's exhausting and admin are buggin'. My house-family is deeply beloved to me. I have really good hobbies that make me really happy. I've been playing a weekly RPG for the first time in my life and we even finished a campaign.
And I have a whole mess of loved ones, from partners to comets to friends to family to my community, all the beloved people who make my life shine. I am freakishly lucky, to have so many amazing people around me. It's been really splendid this year, with my increased trips to Maryland, to get to see more of those people on the regular.
My brain is still a whole monster of a mess, and I can't in good conscience say it's ~getting better~ but I can say every year I learn more about how to handle it. I'm going into 2024 armed with structures, plans, ideas, abilities. I will keep writing things down on my todo list and trying even to do them.
The macro level is really bad, and I'd be a fucking liar if I said that stuff doesn't affect me, doesn't grind me down quietly, a little more each day.
But there's a lot of good in my life too. Thanks to y'all, who're such a part of it. I love you.
~Sor
MOOP!