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Feb. 22nd, 2015 01:29 amI am in a pretty serious "everything is terrible" right now space. Lots of reasons, but really, the big one is that "everything is terrible".
But you know what?
I am a stubborn-ass survivor. I am a fighter. I am too good for my brain to pull This Kind of Bullshit without lashing out wildly at it, just out of, you know, _spite_ or something.
So today, I lashed out by doing a little bit of room cleaning (mostly of the "put everything in piles to deal with later" variety) which resulted in a completely clean desktop (YES YES YES YES YES GOOD). And then, once I had my completely clean desktop (to stand on, natch), I realized I could finally put up the index card with the quote from K˚ that I made when he visited1.
But before I did, I remembered that I had been meaning for a couple weeks to make some more cards, mostly because I've been listening to a lot of s00j lately and she sings good yes2. So I sat down and did that, and then I put them all up, tucking them into the grid of the drop-ceiling and pinning them to the tiles.
That was about when I realized that I have some posters I've never found the opportunity or space to put up. And I still had all this leftover ceiling. Then after those were done, I realized that I could run ribbon through my collection of origami dodecahedrons and hang those up by my PHiZZ torii5. And then I realized I could take some of the insect fabric Sparr got me and hang it above my windows.
MY ROOM IS BEAUTIFUL AND I LOVE LIVING IN IT.
And that's gonna go a _lot_ towards coping with the fact that "everything is terrible".
( Pictures under the cut )
My room feels less like a bedroom and more like a studio right now, and that's just about the best thing I could possibly do for my mental health, I do think.
~Sor
MOOP!
1: I keep index cards on the ceiling above my bed. You can see an original collection of them here.
You don't get to know what K˚ said to me that I found so significant unless you come to visit and I let you in my room and you get in a place where you can read all the cards and you figure out which one is from him. But I have been meaning to blog about it.
2: Reference post for where the phrasing "you sing good yes" comes from. I have gotten a little better at reconciling s00j-as-person with sooj-as-singergoddess. Gosh, I mean, I even waltzed with her3 last time I ran into her (at Balticon '12). Also, it has become a little more important to my life as a whole to complete that reconciliation. For, you know, reasons.
3: I can say of my bite that it's worse than my bark.4
4: You wanna know why I don't do subtlety? Because this is a simple example of the way I work. No one pays enough attention to follow this thread. That's intentional, only usually it matters, so I don't draw attention to it (or even do it in the first place).
5: Toruses?
6: Dodecahedrons are powerful. Like, do not mess with them they will fuck you up powerful. Building them is a good thing, destroying them is a TERRIBLE thing, and while they can affect all aspects of life, I believe they most strongly influence travel. Hence my musing that I could unfuck the T some by building more.
But you know what?
I am a stubborn-ass survivor. I am a fighter. I am too good for my brain to pull This Kind of Bullshit without lashing out wildly at it, just out of, you know, _spite_ or something.
So today, I lashed out by doing a little bit of room cleaning (mostly of the "put everything in piles to deal with later" variety) which resulted in a completely clean desktop (YES YES YES YES YES GOOD). And then, once I had my completely clean desktop (to stand on, natch), I realized I could finally put up the index card with the quote from K˚ that I made when he visited1.
But before I did, I remembered that I had been meaning for a couple weeks to make some more cards, mostly because I've been listening to a lot of s00j lately and she sings good yes2. So I sat down and did that, and then I put them all up, tucking them into the grid of the drop-ceiling and pinning them to the tiles.
That was about when I realized that I have some posters I've never found the opportunity or space to put up. And I still had all this leftover ceiling. Then after those were done, I realized that I could run ribbon through my collection of origami dodecahedrons and hang those up by my PHiZZ torii5. And then I realized I could take some of the insect fabric Sparr got me and hang it above my windows.
MY ROOM IS BEAUTIFUL AND I LOVE LIVING IN IT.
And that's gonna go a _lot_ towards coping with the fact that "everything is terrible".
( Pictures under the cut )
My room feels less like a bedroom and more like a studio right now, and that's just about the best thing I could possibly do for my mental health, I do think.
~Sor
MOOP!
1: I keep index cards on the ceiling above my bed. You can see an original collection of them here.
You don't get to know what K˚ said to me that I found so significant unless you come to visit and I let you in my room and you get in a place where you can read all the cards and you figure out which one is from him. But I have been meaning to blog about it.
2: Reference post for where the phrasing "you sing good yes" comes from. I have gotten a little better at reconciling s00j-as-person with sooj-as-singergoddess. Gosh, I mean, I even waltzed with her3 last time I ran into her (at Balticon '12). Also, it has become a little more important to my life as a whole to complete that reconciliation. For, you know, reasons.
3: I can say of my bite that it's worse than my bark.4
4: You wanna know why I don't do subtlety? Because this is a simple example of the way I work. No one pays enough attention to follow this thread. That's intentional, only usually it matters, so I don't draw attention to it (or even do it in the first place).
5: Toruses?
6: Dodecahedrons are powerful. Like, do not mess with them they will fuck you up powerful. Building them is a good thing, destroying them is a TERRIBLE thing, and while they can affect all aspects of life, I believe they most strongly influence travel. Hence my musing that I could unfuck the T some by building more.
