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[sorcyress]

THOUGHTS WHILE PACKING:

1548:

Man, my folder of worship is getting *awesomely* full. One Comedity print, original art by Randy Milholland, Randall Munroe, and Jeph Jacques, a random commision of a dinosaur I bought at AnimeBoston, Hiro's milk mustache ad, the picture of me that Dominik used as a print for his portfolio, and my still alive index cards.

And that's not counting the Maryland folder of worship which contains an obscene amount of KattersArt, and my original sluggy art.

(For reference, the folder of worship is basically full of everything that goes on the wall of worship. So, not real posters, but Other Cool Things. I should put the ST article I ripped out of a magazine in there too.)


1557: Dude, that's James Bond? What the hell is James Bond music doing in my iTun...ohyeah. Thanks Talia!

1636: Unrelatedly to anything (I'm fine today, just a little stressed out) I find it really interesting that, one of the things I do when I'm trying really hard not to start crying in public, is to begin seeing how much of the Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy I can recite.

Granted, this somehow backfires as I originally began to learn hitchhikers as a self-masochistic way to illustrate the 2718.89 miles between me and my clone, and if I think too hard about that I'll be depressed, but still, just as a "shit shit I need to distract myself from everything in real life" it works like a charm.

1925: ...Ohyeah, I was working on this. Well, I mean, Ria was all "doof?" and dhs was all "I'll bribe you to come to Diesel with the offer of giving back your clothes" and so I went and got dinner with Ria and Mando (who recently dyed his hair BLUE and so now looks not unlike a character of mine) and then went to Diesel where I stayed for like...an hour or something. On the wicked plus side, I was finally properly/formally introduced to sunspiral, which is exciting. *adds him as a friend*

Now all I need to do is properly meet Cthulia and I'll be able to officially consider myself a Boston based fen.

2137: Did I really just spend the last two hours reorganizing my friends lists, again? Fuck. Me.

2224: You know what I want to know? I want to know how long it would've taken me to meet and become friends with Janny without the sluggy.net link. I think the only other person on my friends list who I could say pretty confidentally that I would meet without however I met them having happened is dan4th. And maybe very vaguely possibly Magus, but only insomuch I would've started to meet him at Balticon '06 rather than Origins '04

I'm attempting to clean out my gmail inbox, ie, archiving everything I'm done with. I had 1209 messages from 2008 sitting in my inbox waiting to be archived and about 4500 overall, I am *hilariously* bad at this, and not just because of the several hundred comment threads of doom I'm ignoring with mek.

OH! And I might be going to GenCon this year!! Mom's going, and if I can get the time off from wherever I will be working, there was an implication of me being able to booth babe for Joan. :D!

2237: So, something Tristan asked me right when we found out we were both virgos¹ was "So what's your neurosis?" I can't remember exactly what I answered --almost certainly my default compulsion, the fact that I clean my glasses overly often, and every single time I ever get into a conversation about OCD or neuroses. *speaking of which, cleans 'em now. Sigh*

But I think my current big one is the neck thing. I hate hate HATE having my neck touched, it freaks me out. Occasionally, I'll just freak out about the fact that I have a neck for no good damn reason which pisses me off, especially when I get the "ohgodohgod, need to have nothing near my neck, RIGHT NOW" Necklaces and collars I can take off. T-shirts are harder. Skin is impossible.

I was idly thinking about this, and about the fact that, when doing the cuddling/petting/caressing fan situation that I seem to find myself in a lot, if someone gets their hands too close to my neck, I will invariably move their hands down.

At some point, I am going to inadvertently move their hands down to far and accidentally cause someone to grope me. Stupid fucking neuroses.

2301: Oh, bitches!! So, I'm looking at my class schedule, and the creative writing class I really wanted to take because hey --Sorcy likes creative writing!-- takes place on Thursdays. From 6:45 to 9:15 PM.

Yeah, when is Concord based contra again? What's that? Exactly that time? What the fuck Belanie. What the fuck.

(So now I have to decide if I'm going to try and find another class to take instead or if I'm just going to not start doing contra up here until next January --I suspect one of the deciding factors in which I choose will be how much contra I get in over the summer.

Still though. Bitches.

0019: QUOTE OF THE DAY:

JoshZed:
this is more of the strong evidence that I'm really a 1 on the Kinsey scale
or close to it
I mean, if Randall doesn't do it for me, who will?

(Good lord, has the concept of sexing up Randall Munroe become a *theme* in my livejournal? That's either terrifying or awesome.)

Also, I am amused that I started this as 'thoughts while packing' and haven't actually packed anything in seven hours or so.

0101:

NEW Quote of the Day!

"Do I want to know why you are interested in my lovelife?"
"Because human interactions of all sort fascinate me."
"Any sort of interaction is fascinating if it involves cherry-flavored lube!"
[Immediate follow-up comment] "...........I did not just type that.........."

0112:

OHMYGOD.

Does the world love me? I don't actually know. But the world might!

But...not being at movie night.

But Satanic motherfucking Mechanics!

Ohhhh, I should not be forced to have decisions like this...

0222: Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, Sor? Fuck you. Go do your paper. Like...now. Just because you know damn well you're not going to be sleeping tonight is no reason to not get the paper done early.

P.S: What is your plan, to sleep on the floor or something eventually? You're incredibly fucking stupid, I hope you're aware of that. Also, a week of sleep-dep? What makes you think you'll even be able to potentially *begin* to make it to Rocky? Yeah, that's what I thought. Tell your terminal optimism to fuck off.

Allfornow

~Sor
MOOP!

1: heh, I almost wrote that as 'virgins'. Oops.

Comments

[macaroniandtuna.livejournal.com]

Finish your paper early? What heresy is this? I hoped to have mine done in time to turn in at 4pm today, and I've got threeish pages right now.

You've told me the neck thing was intentional, but it seems to me that if it's become debilitating, it's time to push it back the other way.

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

The neck thing is not, to the best of my knowledge intentional and I have utterly no recollection of telling you that.

I try to push at it. I do better some days than others. *shrugs*

~Sor

[macaroniandtuna.livejournal.com]

Perhaps I'm crazy then. I dunno. ::shrug:: I've no idea if it would actually work, but it seems to me like the principles of classical Pavlovian conditioning should work perfectly to help. Make sure you're in a comfortable and safe place with people who can take care of you around, and push yourself as long as you can, as often as you can, then eventually do it with different people around, then in different locations, etc. etc. Seems like eventually the positive conditioning period will be so long as to be forever for all intents and purposes.

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

Blek Pavlov. I suppose I could do it with people I seriously trusted (I'm usually past the idea of myself touching my neck) but it seems like a wicked odd request.

~Sor

[macaroniandtuna.livejournal.com]

Why blek Pavlov? He had good ideas.

I'm sure it'd be an odd request, but if you explained what you're trying to do I'm sure they'd get it. You know cool peoples, I'm sure they'd be up for it.

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

His ideas are sound, sure, but I'm not sure I want to apply them to myself. I'm really bad about breaking habits I have and applying new, better, habits.

The trick is doing it at the right levels of trust in the right order. And even if I trust the person more than anyone else, and even *ignoring* the neck thing, I'm a little skeptical about asking people to grab me around the throat.

~Sor

[macaroniandtuna.livejournal.com]

Nono, I don't mean grab. Something gentler, more subtle, and harder to notice would probably be a good way to start. Why skeptical?

Bad habits are hard to break, yeah. I think the rule of thumb is do something every day for 30 days and it becomes (or breaks a) habit. Why not apply them to yourself? You already have, yanno. Even something as simple as a name fits, not to mention that odd brrroop sound your mom makes to get your attention. Same kind of conditioning, just perhaps simpler than what I'm suggesting.

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

I'm skeptical because it's late at night, and until the sleepdep-mania kicks in, I tend to be subdued and a little cynical.

Maybe I'll dual-train myself out of the neck thing and my sister into being called Babaloo. Or something. o.O

~Sor

[macaroniandtuna.livejournal.com]

Babaloo? Wha?

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

I spontaneously decided recently that Aly's new name was Babaloo. For no real reason. Because I'm that kind of sister.

She tries to reject, but I'll teach her, oh yes....*grins evilly*

~Sor

[macaroniandtuna.livejournal.com]

...alright then. ::backs away slowly::

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

You're an older sibling. You can't tell me you've never arbitrarily decided to rename your siblings, can you?

~Sor

[macaroniandtuna.livejournal.com]

No, I don't think I have.

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

Oh. Strange.

~Sor

[macaroniandtuna.livejournal.com]

Yes, I most certainly am.

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

You should try it! It's great fun.

Or just help me teach Aly that her new name is Babaloo.

~Sor

[macaroniandtuna.livejournal.com]

Yeahhh we'll see. Maybe.

[sunspiral.livejournal.com]

I'm an oldest sibling too, but I never tried to rename my siblings. (Good to see you at Diesel, btw.)

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

Oh, you totally should.

I successfully managed to train both of my younger siblings into answering to "Kid!", of which I'm very proud. Babaloo is proving more difficult, but I shall persist!!

~Sor

[sunspiral.livejournal.com]

::laugh:: You are clearly evil in all the best ways.

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

*grins!* I do my best, certainly. And hell, up until I proved otherwise, I was considered the *good* one of me and my clone.

~Sor

(Although, technically, I'm still considered the 'less evil' one. I've just been told rather forcefully that I can never label myself the good clone ever again.)

[sunspiral.livejournal.com]

I have a "twin" in the Boston community and whichever of us is currently having more fun gets to be the evil twin.

[drama-angel3189.livejournal.com]

Sorry dear, but I think I'm on Aly's side. I don't like that whole, new name on a whim thing, you know?

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

You can be on her side as much as you want. IT WILL NOT STOP ME!

~Sor

[persis.livejournal.com]

Concord dance is at the Scout House, Thursday, 7:30-10:30 pm.

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

Yeeeeeah. We'll have to see if I can work around that somehow.

~Sor

Re: Comedity

[ndkid.livejournal.com]

It feels sorta weird/awkward to have people having prints of stuff done by people I hung out with in college.

Then again, if Michael Vick had been a sci-fi loving geek, I'd have even more feelings of weirdness, so I don't really mind this much, in the grand scheme of things.

Plus, we (Comedity boys and I) have another Virginia Tech friend who's aunt is married to... Frank Miller. ("Uncle Frank", she calls him... *dies*)

It's all so strange...

Re: Comedity

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

*boggles!*

Just revel in it, that's what I do with my famous friends. "Oh you like DnD? My uncle wrote some stuff for them. This setting called Eberron or something..."

~Sor