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Dec. 12th, 2018 01:39 pmLast night I went to squares for the first time in...over a semester. It was nice! I danced in the hack tips, and I got to Rounds dance with a couple people, and I led a Grand March that was a little unpolished but probably not awful. I have a new working theory (determined with the help of my therapist) that it's really hard to fuck up a Grand March so badly that it Cannot Be Saved, and it was nice to (unintentionally, I promise!) see that in action.
I continue to never have friends or time for friends and/or friendship, but I think this counts as two unusual social things I've done in a week (hanging with bellsfolks doesn't count --it's definitely appreciated and good for me, but doesn't count as unusual anymore) which is a hugely good track record. I think my ongoing mood will maybe reflect that? I don't know, I've been in a really dark place the last two or three days(weeks), and it's not fun.
(On Saturday I went to the strip dreidl party and had a pretty nice time. People liked the clever joke I wrote on my tits1 and there were many good latkes to eat and it was nice to have chattytimes, even if it was mostly not with anyone I know really well or feel super intimate towards.)
There's a party this weekend that I haven't RSVPd to and haven't definitely decided to go to, but I think I would like to go to. And there's a _lot_ of bells stuff --four quarter peals on Saturday (I'm tenoring for one of them) and tower cleaning on Sunday. I need to do a little more Christmas shopping (I still don't have anything really good for mom, but then again, she hasn't sent out a list HINT HINT) this weekend too, but I think that'll be sorta in and around bells stuff.
And that's where I'm at. My brain is really painfully not good right now, but I'm hiding it by lots of enjoying(?) and being good at(??) my job. Tonight is laundry and grading, and tomorrow and Friday are FRANTIC PREPARATION OF THE EVIDENCE FILE, but at least I don't have my Unit Four lessons hanging over my head anymore2
I hope you are well! I would like to see you, but I'm probably not willing to make/commit to specific plans until the new year at this point (unless you're wabbit and live near Dallas and would be willing to hang between the 23rd and 1st)
~Sor
MOOP!
1: "It's okay Tumblr --I'm not female and neither are these!" and then I had arrows pointing at my nip nops. I am Very Good at humour or something.
2: Except insomuch as I'm not sure if I count for having submitted them on time or not. I submitted them on Dec7 around 5PM my time, they need to be in "six months before the Unit 5 test" which is June 8th. Of course, 5PM my time is like 10PM Scotland, and then they weren't in the office on Saturday and Sunday so I had an email bright and early on Monday telling me my Unit Four stuff was received...but does that mean it was in time? No one knows!
I told my therapist straight up that if Scotland decides to be that petty with me, then I will go ahead and flex my power until they burn.
I continue to never have friends or time for friends and/or friendship, but I think this counts as two unusual social things I've done in a week (hanging with bellsfolks doesn't count --it's definitely appreciated and good for me, but doesn't count as unusual anymore) which is a hugely good track record. I think my ongoing mood will maybe reflect that? I don't know, I've been in a really dark place the last two or three days(weeks), and it's not fun.
(On Saturday I went to the strip dreidl party and had a pretty nice time. People liked the clever joke I wrote on my tits1 and there were many good latkes to eat and it was nice to have chattytimes, even if it was mostly not with anyone I know really well or feel super intimate towards.)
There's a party this weekend that I haven't RSVPd to and haven't definitely decided to go to, but I think I would like to go to. And there's a _lot_ of bells stuff --four quarter peals on Saturday (I'm tenoring for one of them) and tower cleaning on Sunday. I need to do a little more Christmas shopping (I still don't have anything really good for mom, but then again, she hasn't sent out a list HINT HINT) this weekend too, but I think that'll be sorta in and around bells stuff.
And that's where I'm at. My brain is really painfully not good right now, but I'm hiding it by lots of enjoying(?) and being good at(??) my job. Tonight is laundry and grading, and tomorrow and Friday are FRANTIC PREPARATION OF THE EVIDENCE FILE, but at least I don't have my Unit Four lessons hanging over my head anymore2
I hope you are well! I would like to see you, but I'm probably not willing to make/commit to specific plans until the new year at this point (unless you're wabbit and live near Dallas and would be willing to hang between the 23rd and 1st)
~Sor
MOOP!
1: "It's okay Tumblr --I'm not female and neither are these!" and then I had arrows pointing at my nip nops. I am Very Good at humour or something.
2: Except insomuch as I'm not sure if I count for having submitted them on time or not. I submitted them on Dec7 around 5PM my time, they need to be in "six months before the Unit 5 test" which is June 8th. Of course, 5PM my time is like 10PM Scotland, and then they weren't in the office on Saturday and Sunday so I had an email bright and early on Monday telling me my Unit Four stuff was received...but does that mean it was in time? No one knows!
I told my therapist straight up that if Scotland decides to be that petty with me, then I will go ahead and flex my power until they burn.
