I won't fall
Apr. 9th, 2021 01:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sorcyressSo someone on Facebook posted some Leverage news, and included a link to this video, as a Leverage OT3 fanvid. (lots of footage from all five seasons, no direct plot spoilers, yes emotion spoilers).
And I started watching, because the Leverage OT3 is _the_ one I mean if I say "One True Triad" without any other qualifiers. Every time I rewatch Leverage, I love it more. I get about a minute in, and start crying.
And start sobbing.
I finished watching and went downstairs to get lunch, and found surprise cookies and pao de quejo made by Ezri. So I took some of those outside and for twenty minutes I just...sat in the sunshine with my back against the garage, eating good things and crying and staring at the colours on the insides of my eyelids.
I've watched the video three more times since then, because it really is a flawless work of editing, but also because it's...really nice to have feelings, even just for a little while. I don't know how long I get to feel, and I don't know if I get to feel anything other than overwhelm and pain, but I am happy to exist right now.
Ever forwards.
~Sor
MOOP!
And I started watching, because the Leverage OT3 is _the_ one I mean if I say "One True Triad" without any other qualifiers. Every time I rewatch Leverage, I love it more. I get about a minute in, and start crying.
And start sobbing.
I finished watching and went downstairs to get lunch, and found surprise cookies and pao de quejo made by Ezri. So I took some of those outside and for twenty minutes I just...sat in the sunshine with my back against the garage, eating good things and crying and staring at the colours on the insides of my eyelids.
I've watched the video three more times since then, because it really is a flawless work of editing, but also because it's...really nice to have feelings, even just for a little while. I don't know how long I get to feel, and I don't know if I get to feel anything other than overwhelm and pain, but I am happy to exist right now.
Ever forwards.
~Sor
MOOP!