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sorcyressTwo years ago today, it was 30 March 2007.
I spent the day frantic. Pacing madly, stressed out. School could not go by fast enough, and not even spending a calm afternoon with Ksatyr could reduce the way my heart was pounding.
There are a lot of terrible sentences in the English language. "The check is in the mail." "We need to talk." "The test came out positive." Two years ago today, I got to add one to my personal list of horrible horrible things to say --"The plane has been delayed." Delayed? What the hell do they mean, delayed. That plane was *important* goddamnit.
That plane was the most important thing in the world to me just then. Not for any particular reason of mechanics or materialism, but because of one specific nineteen year old passenger.
My clone.
I cannot adequately put into words the thoughts and feelings and wonder and sheer utter joy that took place when I first saw her, first got to hold her. Suffice to say it was amazing. For single moments in my life? It's up there. It's way up there.
Two years ago today, it was 30 March 2007. It was three years and two months after we had become clones. Three years and two months of e-mails and journals and phone calls and letters and conversations and understanding and love and sharing and desperate desperate want. Our conversations completely changed at that point --it's harder to settle for Less once you've had More-- but really, it was worth it.
That meeting, and the two later in 2007, and the two later in 2008, and the ones that will happen in 2009 and 2010 and so on and so on until we eventually warp the world so that us together is instead the norm, all those meetings make it worth it. All the pain, all the loneliness, and the depression and melancholy and hatred and longing and want, are made worth it.
And two years ago today, it was worth it for the very first time.
~Sor
MOOP!
I spent the day frantic. Pacing madly, stressed out. School could not go by fast enough, and not even spending a calm afternoon with Ksatyr could reduce the way my heart was pounding.
There are a lot of terrible sentences in the English language. "The check is in the mail." "We need to talk." "The test came out positive." Two years ago today, I got to add one to my personal list of horrible horrible things to say --"The plane has been delayed." Delayed? What the hell do they mean, delayed. That plane was *important* goddamnit.
That plane was the most important thing in the world to me just then. Not for any particular reason of mechanics or materialism, but because of one specific nineteen year old passenger.
My clone.
I cannot adequately put into words the thoughts and feelings and wonder and sheer utter joy that took place when I first saw her, first got to hold her. Suffice to say it was amazing. For single moments in my life? It's up there. It's way up there.
Two years ago today, it was 30 March 2007. It was three years and two months after we had become clones. Three years and two months of e-mails and journals and phone calls and letters and conversations and understanding and love and sharing and desperate desperate want. Our conversations completely changed at that point --it's harder to settle for Less once you've had More-- but really, it was worth it.
That meeting, and the two later in 2007, and the two later in 2008, and the ones that will happen in 2009 and 2010 and so on and so on until we eventually warp the world so that us together is instead the norm, all those meetings make it worth it. All the pain, all the loneliness, and the depression and melancholy and hatred and longing and want, are made worth it.
And two years ago today, it was worth it for the very first time.
~Sor
MOOP!
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on 2009-03-30 07:38 pm (UTC)no subject
on 2009-03-30 09:23 pm (UTC)no subject
on 2009-03-30 11:57 pm (UTC). o O (i know how it is, too! Although the first time i met my hypertwin, it was awkward & weird (family & stuffnthings, i'd be happy to spill the entire story if you so much as hint that you are interested) but the second time, Splendid & just grew & grew until i got it stuck like glue to my proverbial hip ^_^)