X Years Ago Today

[sorcyress]

So, four years ago today, it was 2005. I was babysitting Koob that night --it must've been a Friday-- and found myself in need of singing lullabyes to him.¹ It's unclear from the entry whether they were more for his benefit or for mine. Probably his, I don't think I was using lullabyes as selfcomfort that far back.

Additionally, I said something that I haven't been able to say very often post then --Dammit, I don't need a guy(/girl) in my life to be happy, I know that. But it's damm hard to be perfetly and utterly content when everyone else around you DOES have one.

(Of course, this was mere *days* before I met sonsashi and All That started.) But indeed, I have not spent very much of the last four years single, a month at the start and end of 2008, six months in '07....I've finally made it in a year long relationship, and given a few weeks, I'll have done that twice.

It's funny to think that the stubbornly single 15!Sor would grow up to be so poly she can't keep track² of her complications.

~Sor
MOOP!

((Oh, and since it comes up in the abovelinked post, Rin. Rin is not quite a denizen³, but is my fictional, occasionally Mary-Sueish fantasyself. Done as strictly as possible, she is me with magik, but she developed into more of a sort of watchdog in the back of my mind --there was quite a long time where she was keeping an eye on Hyde, because she was easily more powerful than he was. Butyes. Rin in this post is really acting quite like a proto-Alis.⁴))

1: Notetoself: Lullabye post. Do it.
2: No, no, this isn't really true. I have two relationships and four complications. Of course, this is differentiating between the concept of relationship and dating, with the understanding that dating is non-exclusive...I'll post about this one later, too.
3: Person who lives in my head and gives me advi-- damnit, I really just need to write a post explaining them and just link to that whenever the word turns up.
4: Why have I only just noticed how confusing it's going to be to have a guardian bitch called Alis (pronounced Alice) and a little sister called Alys (pronounced Alice) I am displeased.

Comments

[harena.livejournal.com]

It's funny to think that the stubbornly single 15!Sor would grow up to be so poly she can't keep track of her complications.

It's right up there with Married!Harena being so stubbornly monogamous and straight, flying headlong into quite an Awakening post-divorce #2! ;)

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

*chuckles* Yeah, well... The world is crazy and people are strange, man is a creature of constant change.

~Sor

[harena.livejournal.com]

And the irony here is that i am also so abhorrent to change it isn't even funny.. even as i sit around hoping, nay wishing, dreaming for my current situation TO change. See, there's Change and there's Change, y'know?

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Yeah, I know how that is.

*gives you change and or glitter!*

~Sor

[crystalpyramid]

-Dammit, I don't need a guy(/girl) in my life to be happy, I know that. But it's damm hard to be perfectly and utterly content when everyone else around you DOES have one.

(Of course, this was mere *days* before I met [info]sonsashi and All That started.)

In my experience, deciding I'm totally content and stable single is usually the universe's cue to start throwing itself randomly at me. Which is usually more bewildering than unpleasant, but it seems to have all worked out okay so far.

[marcmagus]

I've had exactly the same experience. The instant I'm honestly, legitimately comfortable with being single to the point where I'm kind of enjoying the benefits it has, someone I've had a crush on for two years will suddenly decide they're into me, or something.

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

I suspect it partially has something to do with the confidence thing --if people around you recognize that you're confident and comfortable with yourself, they're more likely to be into you, or something.

~Sor

[erikakaiser.livejournal.com]

Being single > everything ever

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

*shrugs* Being single < getting heaps and heaps of cuddles.

~Sor

[erikakaiser.livejournal.com]

Because physical contact is so relevant to a good relationship.

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

Nnn. Okay, agree to disagree? Physical contact is relevant to almost all my relationships, be they romantic or not. I am a creature of cuddling, of hugs, of touch. I get disoriented when I lose that.

~Sor

[marcmagus]

4: Why have I only just noticed how confusing it's going to be to have a guardian bitch called Alis (pronounced Alice) and a little sister called Alys (pronounced Alice) I am displeased.

Good question. Why did it take you so long?

I feel like I remember reading your "Dammit..." quote, but looking at the post in question, I don't recall having read it. You must have said it again in the last not-quite-four years or something.

Also, I'd like to call out this quote from the comments on that entry: kdsorceress: "math is SO useless. *shakes fist*"

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

In August of 2005, I had just finished flunking pre-calculus, due to the Worst Math Teacher Ever and transferring into a slightly less terrible but still pretty bad maths class. I'm pretty sure that that was the highest level of "math sucks" I have *ever* had.

By September of 2006, I was already beginning to realize that my new pre-calc teacher was the greatest teacher at Long Reach, and the only person with any math talent there at all. I totally blame him for my entire career path.

Re: Alis/Alys...I don't know why it took me so long. Possibly because I mostly call the former Al and the latter Babaloo?

I used to use the whole "damnit, do not need an SO" thing fairly often. I had most of three (four?) years where everyone around me was pairing off, and I was all alone.

~Sor