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Mar. 5th, 2024 10:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sorcyressIt's 10:00 at night, and I am giving up, I have done lots of constructive things today, I have just abruptly run out of the energy to do any more constructive things, and so I'm gonna fuck around for an hour and then go to bed and try not to feel godawful about not having done more things.
(I have found that accomplishing things throws into stark relief how many things I haven't accomplished, and then I feel like shit, where not accomplishing things makes me feel like general garbage, but it's usually better paired with denial so I don't notice the garbage-feels in the same way.)
Some things I have done today:
Got to school a bit late, prepped a pretty okay lesson for Algebra, taught two sections of Algebra and a section of Geometry, had good xblock circle time that the kids didn't actually complain constantly about, finished reading my book, had to write a couple kids up for fighting, wandered around the school for check-ins with other staff, administered the NEML to a random kid from another class who missed it, had a curriculum committee meeting with just the two other teachers and not our boss, had a therapy, talked about Big Relationship Feels in therapy, also briefly talked about the future of my career in preparation for talking to boss about same, finished logging my attendance and conduct referrals thereof.
Walked to the library, dropped off three books, checked out two books, put a hold on one book. Walked most of the way to Davis, caught a bus like a third of the way, went and voted, walked home, socialized with Ezri, Rey, and Minerva, ate food. Had a half-hour of video game/fuckaround time, then turned on some background taskmaster to do grading. Got distracted doing some important logistics work for one of my dance responsibilities. Graded a Geometry assessment with 50 minutes of Taskmaster-background-noise.
And now my brain is insisting that I have been doing things _the whole fucking day_ and we are very tired now. Which is unfortunate, because my room is a disaster and I need to do laundry and work on getting rid of my shitty mattress and replacing it with a good one and filing papers. And also I should wash the dishes.
But I'll probably earn a die today, and that's nice. I tried to sit down a little bit with my Gigantic Endless ToDo List, and I managed to do a little bit of reward brainstorming vis-a-vis what tasks should reward me what recent bonus dice-acquisitions.
I hope you are well. <3
~Sor
MOOP!
(I have found that accomplishing things throws into stark relief how many things I haven't accomplished, and then I feel like shit, where not accomplishing things makes me feel like general garbage, but it's usually better paired with denial so I don't notice the garbage-feels in the same way.)
Some things I have done today:
Got to school a bit late, prepped a pretty okay lesson for Algebra, taught two sections of Algebra and a section of Geometry, had good xblock circle time that the kids didn't actually complain constantly about, finished reading my book, had to write a couple kids up for fighting, wandered around the school for check-ins with other staff, administered the NEML to a random kid from another class who missed it, had a curriculum committee meeting with just the two other teachers and not our boss, had a therapy, talked about Big Relationship Feels in therapy, also briefly talked about the future of my career in preparation for talking to boss about same, finished logging my attendance and conduct referrals thereof.
Walked to the library, dropped off three books, checked out two books, put a hold on one book. Walked most of the way to Davis, caught a bus like a third of the way, went and voted, walked home, socialized with Ezri, Rey, and Minerva, ate food. Had a half-hour of video game/fuckaround time, then turned on some background taskmaster to do grading. Got distracted doing some important logistics work for one of my dance responsibilities. Graded a Geometry assessment with 50 minutes of Taskmaster-background-noise.
And now my brain is insisting that I have been doing things _the whole fucking day_ and we are very tired now. Which is unfortunate, because my room is a disaster and I need to do laundry and work on getting rid of my shitty mattress and replacing it with a good one and filing papers. And also I should wash the dishes.
But I'll probably earn a die today, and that's nice. I tried to sit down a little bit with my Gigantic Endless ToDo List, and I managed to do a little bit of reward brainstorming vis-a-vis what tasks should reward me what recent bonus dice-acquisitions.
I hope you are well. <3
~Sor
MOOP!