My brain and other chemical disasters
May. 20th, 2020 01:14 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sorcyressI have started Habitica again, for the first time in...probably two years or so? Realistically much longer.
This is literally day one. I figure I'm gonna give it a week or so, and then propose to the ADHD Nightmare Party Discord that anyone else who wants to be in a party with me is welcome to. Of course, I could lose track of the dratted game entirely before then.
I reset my dailies entirely, and deleted every single habit and to-do item that was there. I didn't reset the whole account, because damnit, I have worked hard in the past for all the appropriate animals and I was not willing to get rid of that progress. Or my ridiculously thorough wardrobe.
Because it's day one of a new game, of course it's working for me. It is nice to have "dailies" again though. Words are one of them, of course (this is day four *smiles*), and brushing teeth in morn and eve. Do a 20/10, be the dishes fairy (will have to decide if I'm allowed to double-dip --leaning toward no). Meds, of course. Posting a selfie, because that feels more important than ever in these trying times. And inbox zero, at least for that day, and reading my dreamwidth, because maybe if I make it an Assignment, I'll actually do it.
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I have been very _very_ bad at time this week.
I think, unfortunately, a lot of the problem was that Austin was slightly shifted on his visit, and came Sat-Mon instead of Fri-Sun. I mean, don't get me wrong, I am always thrilled to have him visit, but I spent much of Monday thinking it was still weekend because the first half of the day had a pretty boy in it, and I spent enough of today thinking it was Monday that I completely missed my therapy appointment. Literally two hours later I realized "oh shit" and went and replied to the nice email Jenn had sent a few minutes after our meeting was supposed to begin and apologized. Whoooooops. This is somehow worse than her standing me up, and I am pissed at myself for it.
I think I've mostly settled myself back into understanding what day of the week it is, and I made some good progress on getting in touch with my seniors about their "are you passing class" status. Most of them are indeed, because grades are fake at the best of times, and these are not that.
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Astonishingly, I _might_ be on track to actually go to bed "on time" which is to say by two. I still have to do dishes and some sort of cleaning task (it doesn't actually have to be twenty minutes worth), and finish my words, if I'm gonna have a gold-star do-all-the-dailies day. I don't see why I shouldn't be successful on my VERY FIRST DAY OF HABITICING! More importantly, if I can't maintain it, it's a good sign that my dailies list is too much for me.
If I am extremely clever, I will find my heat pad and toss it in the microwave for a while before bed so I can lie on it a bit and see if that helps my sore shoulder.
***
I really liked this video on twitter of a backhoe doing construction cuteness. Please keep all your "omg so dangerous" takes to yourselves.
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I hope you are doing well. I love you, and think you're a splendid sort of person! <3
~Sor
MOOP!
This is literally day one. I figure I'm gonna give it a week or so, and then propose to the ADHD Nightmare Party Discord that anyone else who wants to be in a party with me is welcome to. Of course, I could lose track of the dratted game entirely before then.
I reset my dailies entirely, and deleted every single habit and to-do item that was there. I didn't reset the whole account, because damnit, I have worked hard in the past for all the appropriate animals and I was not willing to get rid of that progress. Or my ridiculously thorough wardrobe.
Because it's day one of a new game, of course it's working for me. It is nice to have "dailies" again though. Words are one of them, of course (this is day four *smiles*), and brushing teeth in morn and eve. Do a 20/10, be the dishes fairy (will have to decide if I'm allowed to double-dip --leaning toward no). Meds, of course. Posting a selfie, because that feels more important than ever in these trying times. And inbox zero, at least for that day, and reading my dreamwidth, because maybe if I make it an Assignment, I'll actually do it.
***
I have been very _very_ bad at time this week.
I think, unfortunately, a lot of the problem was that Austin was slightly shifted on his visit, and came Sat-Mon instead of Fri-Sun. I mean, don't get me wrong, I am always thrilled to have him visit, but I spent much of Monday thinking it was still weekend because the first half of the day had a pretty boy in it, and I spent enough of today thinking it was Monday that I completely missed my therapy appointment. Literally two hours later I realized "oh shit" and went and replied to the nice email Jenn had sent a few minutes after our meeting was supposed to begin and apologized. Whoooooops. This is somehow worse than her standing me up, and I am pissed at myself for it.
I think I've mostly settled myself back into understanding what day of the week it is, and I made some good progress on getting in touch with my seniors about their "are you passing class" status. Most of them are indeed, because grades are fake at the best of times, and these are not that.
***
Astonishingly, I _might_ be on track to actually go to bed "on time" which is to say by two. I still have to do dishes and some sort of cleaning task (it doesn't actually have to be twenty minutes worth), and finish my words, if I'm gonna have a gold-star do-all-the-dailies day. I don't see why I shouldn't be successful on my VERY FIRST DAY OF HABITICING! More importantly, if I can't maintain it, it's a good sign that my dailies list is too much for me.
If I am extremely clever, I will find my heat pad and toss it in the microwave for a while before bed so I can lie on it a bit and see if that helps my sore shoulder.
***
I really liked this video on twitter of a backhoe doing construction cuteness. Please keep all your "omg so dangerous" takes to yourselves.
***
I hope you are doing well. I love you, and think you're a splendid sort of person! <3
~Sor
MOOP!