Twelve and a half years and four computers now

[sorcyress]

I have started occasionally experiencing selective mutism.

And on the one hand, I don't actually think this is all that new an experience to me. I think I've always found it hard to talk sometimes, I've just not had a good language to refer to those times in any useful way. Selective Mutism is good language, and enough people are starting to know it that it kinda even is a useful thing to indicate to others on the rare occasion it matters.

But like everything about me, I don't _really_ have it and should probably not appropriate from other people's struggles just to sound cool. Especially because I don't actually have it. If I need to talk, and am experiencing a no-talk moment, I just step out of the no-talk and do what I need to do until I can return to it.

The phrase "slightly upsetting and marginally poetic" comes to mind, for no reason at all.

~Sor
MOOP!

Comments

[wispfox]

Coping strategies doesn't mean you don't have it. It sounds like it costs you to make yourself speak in those situations.

I bet it's a spectrum just like everything else. Some can't push past it, some can with varying levels of injury, and some have little to no problem at all.

[canyonwalker]

I'm fairly neurotypical and I have many times when I just don't want to people. I don't care to talk to anyone. There are also times when I'm okay with people-ing but there's a particular subject weighing on my mind that I'm not ready to talk about yet. I'll be ready to talk about it eventually, and talking it over with trusted friends will help, but first I've got to get more settled with it myself.