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Sep. 23rd, 2010 03:22 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
So, apparently I continue to have a crush on every boy. Inspired in part by blintzes, xxxenophile, good conversation, and a directness that refreshingly mirrors my own.
I'm interested. The last time I specifically mentioned this tag, the boy in question was rather intended for light and fluffy and friendship and sex, and rapidly became some strange form of love and trust1 and intimacy that makes me consider perhaps parts of my life could maybe ought to be restructured to ensure he's always in it.
And indeed, the boy in question this time is rather intended for light and fluffy and friendship and sex. My dance card is plenty full, and I don't think he's actively looking for further commitment, so he's quite likely to stay that way. But still.
This is a note to watch eight months and see what's happened. Because I love testing my ability to identify the people I want in my life within only a few hours of meeting them.
~Sor
MOOP!
1: I trust Sparr not to leave, in a way that I have never before trusted any boy with that particular part of myself, and indeed, I think being able to trust him with that has made it easier to trust the rest of my darlings. It's maddening on multiple levels that he can do that to me. It's maddening a lot of what he can do to me, and it's all good. In answer to that post, I love you too.
...and for completely unrelated reasons to him, it is scary to publicly declare my love for a boy. I like that I am sometimes able to do it again.
I'm interested. The last time I specifically mentioned this tag, the boy in question was rather intended for light and fluffy and friendship and sex, and rapidly became some strange form of love and trust1 and intimacy that makes me consider perhaps parts of my life could maybe ought to be restructured to ensure he's always in it.
And indeed, the boy in question this time is rather intended for light and fluffy and friendship and sex. My dance card is plenty full, and I don't think he's actively looking for further commitment, so he's quite likely to stay that way. But still.
This is a note to watch eight months and see what's happened. Because I love testing my ability to identify the people I want in my life within only a few hours of meeting them.
~Sor
MOOP!
1: I trust Sparr not to leave, in a way that I have never before trusted any boy with that particular part of myself, and indeed, I think being able to trust him with that has made it easier to trust the rest of my darlings. It's maddening on multiple levels that he can do that to me. It's maddening a lot of what he can do to me, and it's all good. In answer to that post, I love you too.
...and for completely unrelated reasons to him, it is scary to publicly declare my love for a boy. I like that I am sometimes able to do it again.