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sorcyressIt's strange. I find that, less than two hours before I need to get to the airport to catch my flight Home...I don't really want to leave home.
For all I hate Columbia, and all I love Boston, there are people here who I love dearly, and who I never get to see. The internet connection is reliable, the tv watching is good, and I get to drive on occasion.
But most of all...my family is here. And I love them.
I've always had an uncommonly good relationship with each of the members of my family, so the idea of leaving them...well...it's a little tough. Boston's great and all, but there's no mom to take care of, no Aly to harass, no Nik to play games with.
This hasn't really happened before. Maybe it's the fact that I didn't get to say goodbye to Veronica, maybe it's that I spent all yesterday morning with one of the people down here that I count as a Friend1, maybe it's that my period's about to start and so I'm just past crying without any reason, maybe it's that, after this semester, I'll have equal amounts of college in front of and behind me.
In a year, I will be closer to graduating college than high school.
I'm getting older, and I've always known that Columbia is not going to be where I let myself stagnate. DC, Bal'more, anywhere around here just isn't going to cut it either. I want Camberville, and baring that, I want somewhere around there, where I can spend the rest of my life in a place that I love.
I think I've just learned that sometimes, having the people I love matters too.
~Sor
MOOP!
1: Chris, of course. I don't really know that I have all that many Friends. For the sakes of non-drama, I'm not going to try and list them, except perhaps in my head. It doesn't matter, really, I can't much make the distinction. I have friends who I would tell anything to, and Friends who I don't talk to near often enough.
For all I hate Columbia, and all I love Boston, there are people here who I love dearly, and who I never get to see. The internet connection is reliable, the tv watching is good, and I get to drive on occasion.
But most of all...my family is here. And I love them.
I've always had an uncommonly good relationship with each of the members of my family, so the idea of leaving them...well...it's a little tough. Boston's great and all, but there's no mom to take care of, no Aly to harass, no Nik to play games with.
This hasn't really happened before. Maybe it's the fact that I didn't get to say goodbye to Veronica, maybe it's that I spent all yesterday morning with one of the people down here that I count as a Friend1, maybe it's that my period's about to start and so I'm just past crying without any reason, maybe it's that, after this semester, I'll have equal amounts of college in front of and behind me.
In a year, I will be closer to graduating college than high school.
I'm getting older, and I've always known that Columbia is not going to be where I let myself stagnate. DC, Bal'more, anywhere around here just isn't going to cut it either. I want Camberville, and baring that, I want somewhere around there, where I can spend the rest of my life in a place that I love.
I think I've just learned that sometimes, having the people I love matters too.
~Sor
MOOP!
1: Chris, of course. I don't really know that I have all that many Friends. For the sakes of non-drama, I'm not going to try and list them, except perhaps in my head. It doesn't matter, really, I can't much make the distinction. I have friends who I would tell anything to, and Friends who I don't talk to near often enough.
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on 2009-01-15 05:32 pm (UTC)no subject
on 2009-01-20 03:55 am (UTC)~Sor
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on 2009-01-15 07:40 pm (UTC)no subject
on 2009-01-20 03:51 am (UTC)ALL THE PANTS!
~Sor
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on 2009-01-21 01:34 am (UTC)no subject
on 2009-01-21 02:20 am (UTC)Or both, I suppose. For humour, only the American definition. For practicality of making people bare, both.
~Sor
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on 2009-01-15 09:02 pm (UTC)Long-Winded Babble about Loving too Easily and the Hurts that come along with That but in the End not Wanting to Lose the Capability to LoveSo, to me, having the people i love is more important than the place. Having the place too would be Icing.
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on 2009-01-20 03:52 am (UTC)Columbia certainly was a lot more tolerable with Swing and Kat and Magus around. But then again, we largely stayed inside the house, only venturing out a handful of times. Soyeah. Dunno.
~Sor
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on 2009-01-16 01:47 am (UTC)Why do you have to stagnate, no matter where you are?
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on 2009-01-20 03:53 am (UTC)I don't think I do, really. But I have this very vague sense of wanderlust on a grand scale somewhere deep inside me, along with the wanderlust on a very micro scale that I get often --why do you think I so enjoy walking around my city?
~Sor
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on 2009-01-16 01:53 am (UTC)Also Arisia, SCD, Burdick's, &c....
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on 2009-01-20 03:55 am (UTC)Burdick's? Unless that's the bookstore you dragged me to just prior my leaving, I have no idea where you're talking about.
The lack of SCD in Maryland is terrible, but to make up for it, there is Oella and the Conservatory, which gets me three weeks out of the month, at least. And oh, they are both SO glorious.
~Sor