Homesick.

[sorcyress]

It's strange. I find that, less than two hours before I need to get to the airport to catch my flight Home...I don't really want to leave home.

For all I hate Columbia, and all I love Boston, there are people here who I love dearly, and who I never get to see. The internet connection is reliable, the tv watching is good, and I get to drive on occasion.

But most of all...my family is here. And I love them.

I've always had an uncommonly good relationship with each of the members of my family, so the idea of leaving them...well...it's a little tough. Boston's great and all, but there's no mom to take care of, no Aly to harass, no Nik to play games with.

This hasn't really happened before. Maybe it's the fact that I didn't get to say goodbye to Veronica, maybe it's that I spent all yesterday morning with one of the people down here that I count as a Friend¹, maybe it's that my period's about to start and so I'm just past crying without any reason, maybe it's that, after this semester, I'll have equal amounts of college in front of and behind me.

In a year, I will be closer to graduating college than high school.

I'm getting older, and I've always known that Columbia is not going to be where I let myself stagnate. DC, Bal'more, anywhere around here just isn't going to cut it either. I want Camberville, and baring that, I want somewhere around there, where I can spend the rest of my life in a place that I love.

I think I've just learned that sometimes, having the people I love matters too.

~Sor
MOOP!

1: Chris, of course. I don't really know that I have all that many Friends. For the sakes of non-drama, I'm not going to try and list them, except perhaps in my head. It doesn't matter, really, I can't much make the distinction. I have friends who I would tell anything to, and Friends who I don't talk to near often enough.

Comments

[madbodger.livejournal.com]

Aww, I kinda know that feeling. *sigh* I'm glad I got to see you this trip! Apt icon, too.

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

It was good to see you too!

~Sor

[shield-toad111.livejournal.com]

Out of curiosity, just how do you plan on making Camberville bare?

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

I will steal....

ALL THE PANTS!

~Sor

[shield-toad111.livejournal.com]

British definition, American definition, or both?

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

Yes!

Or both, I suppose. For humour, only the American definition. For practicality of making people bare, both.

~Sor

[harena.livejournal.com]

Yar. Having the people one loves totally Matters. Why else do you think i'm so annoyingly clingy? Why i cried when each & every member of Assassincon left Chez Hypertwin Manor? It's hard to have them & let them go. But Awesome to have when you can be with them. Ohman, so Very Worth It.

Long-Winded Babble about Loving too Easily and the Hurts that come along with That but in the End not Wanting to Lose the Capability to Love

So, to me, having the people i love is more important than the place. Having the place too would be Icing.

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

I...am unsure about this, and it scares the crap out of me and makes me feel like a bad person.

Columbia certainly was a lot more tolerable with Swing and Kat and Magus around. But then again, we largely stayed inside the house, only venturing out a handful of times. Soyeah. Dunno.

~Sor

[macaroniandtuna.livejournal.com]

The way I see it, the people matter more than the place. Places don't change much, and they're not active like people are. Of course, you've got people in both places, so there's that.

Why do you have to stagnate, no matter where you are?

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

Heh. Thank you for calling me on the stagnation thing, I was hoping someone would.

I don't think I do, really. But I have this very vague sense of wanderlust on a grand scale somewhere deep inside me, along with the wanderlust on a very micro scale that I get often --why do you think I so enjoy walking around my city?

~Sor

[jere7my.livejournal.com]

Hmm...that all makes sense, but then Boston is where I am, and I am fabulous.

Also Arisia, SCD, Burdick's, &c....

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

You are indeed fabulous. :P

Burdick's? Unless that's the bookstore you dragged me to just prior my leaving, I have no idea where you're talking about.

The lack of SCD in Maryland is terrible, but to make up for it, there is Oella and the Conservatory, which gets me three weeks out of the month, at least. And oh, they are both SO glorious.

~Sor