It is MEME DAY!! YAYAYAYAYAY!!!
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sorcyressI'm...alarmingly serious about that, actually. I've done three memes today, which is about two more than most weeks.
So, let us start with the controversial meme, which starts like so:
[01] Do you have the guts to answer these questions and re-post as The Controversial Survey?
No! No I don't at all! That would be horrible, if people knew my stances on all sorts of serious issues. I am not SRS BZNS, guys.
Oooo, wait, it never said I had to give *honest* answers. MUAHAHAHAH, LOOPHOLE!!!
[02] Would you do meth if it was legalized?
Shit yes, I would! I do absolutely everything that it is legal for me to do, always, including smoke multiple packs of cigarettes a day, and buy porn like it's about to go out of style. I mean, what's the point of being allowed to do something if you don't actually do it, constantly.
[03] Abortion: for or against it?
I believe abortions should be legal up until the child has its nineteenth birthday. I'M TALKING ABOUT YOU, ALY! AHAHA, JK, JK!
[04] Do you think the world would fail with a female president?
Ahahahaha, yeah. She would totally be too busy buying shoes and dieting to run the entire world.
Alternate answer: The world would certainly not fail if it had a certain set of female co-dictators of the planet. Vote![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
kdsorceress/drama_angel3189!
[05] Do you believe in the death penalty?
Yes, for everyone who's ever commited any crime ever. I'M LOOKING AT YOU GUY WHO GAVE ME THE WRONG CHANGE AT STARBUCKS!
[06] Do you wish marijuana would be legalized already?
Yes, because then I could do it whenever possible. See number two.
[07] Are you for or against premarital sex?
It's not premarital if you never get married!
Seriously though, I have sex with like...twelve people a day. More if it's poly night at Diesel, since everyone knows that poly people are just 100 percent about the orgies, 100 percent of the time. In the past two hours, I've had sex five times, and I've only seen three people. Luckily, I have eight wives, so none of this is premarital at all.
[08] Do you believe in God?
Yeah, we play games every Tuesday and Thursday night. Fucker always wins at S****!, though.
[09] Do you think same sex marriage should be legalized?
I think people should only be allowed to get married if they can find eight people who dissaprove, and defeat them in a free-for-all steel cage match --the potential couple tied together, of course.
[10] Do you think it's wrong that so many Hispanics are illegally moving to the USA?
No, I only think it's wrong when they legally move here. THOSE ARE MY LEGAL RIGHTS YOU ASSHOLES ARE USING UP! I ONLY HAVE SO MANY AND I CAN HARDLY KEEP UP WITH ALL THE CIGS AND SEX AND PORN AND METH AS IT IS!
[11] A twelve year old girl has a baby, should she keep it?
Not if, you know, it looks delicious, no.
[12] Should the alcohol age be lowered to eighteen?
The...alcohol...age? I think there is something wrong with the syntax there.
I think the alcohol age should be lowered to twelve. That way, the babies will come out already pickled in a wine sauce, and be extra delicious when the aforementioned girl cooks them. Also, that way I can add boozahol to the list of legal things I partake in all the goddamn time.
[13] Should the war in Iraq be called off?
Yeah. I mean, who cares that they say potahto and we say potayto.
[14] Assisted suicide is illegal: do you agree?
Oh thank god. I'd hate to have to commit suicide just to assert my legal right to it.
[15] Do you believe in spanking your children?
...pretty much all my children to date have been made of water balloons. Spanking them makes them pop. Which, I mean, depending on your opinions, might actually be optimal.
[16] Would you burn an American flag for a million dollars?
My education, insufficient collection of graphic novels, lack of plane tickets to California, inability to buy sushi whenever the hell I want, and pyromania say 'Yes. Yes I would.'
Shit, did I just answer seriously? Uhhhh...PENIS, GUYS! HAHA, PENIS!
[17] Who do you think would make a better president? McCain or Obama?
McccccccBAMA!!!
Oho, you didn't expect THAT, did you?
(Votekdsorceress/drama_angel3189! Between the two of us, we've got four breasts! That's like...a breast octopus!! (It's not a good idea to actually count them, the whole bus stares at you))
[18] Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers?
JUDGE NOT LEST ME JUDGE YOU A NEW BUTT-HOLE, BUDDY!
(If you caught that reference, you have made me a very happy Sor indeed. And...oo. Damnit. I don't have the time right now to go through four fucking thousand comics right now, just to catch up. I don't. I totally don't. No, really. Really. >.>)
Next up is this age thing I stole when rummaging through a random livejournal for the controversial meme. Warning, I am pretty sure it will make you feel old.
***Fifteen Years Ago 1993***
1) How old were you?
Uhhh....four. Yeeeeah.
2) Where did you go to school?
Some pre-school in Rockville. This is vaguely embarassing, really.
3) Where did you work?
My doll Kathy and I had a Most Excellent detective agency. Yep.
4) Where did you live?
In a townhouse in Rockville, MD
5) Where did you hang out?
At home, the playground.
6) Did you wear contacts?
Not then, no. It was at least another two years before I got my glasses.
7) Who were your friends?
Mom. Probably Trapper and Sue. Certainly Bruce. No one my age that I can recall.
8) How many tattoos did you have?
Ahahahah. Dude, I don't even think I was drawing on myself at that point.
9) How many piercings did you have?
Big fat zero. I was thirteen and a half or so when I got my ears pierced.
10) Did you drive a car?
BIG WHEELS YAH!!!
11) Had you been to a real party?
Oh, most certainly. Mom's New Years and Birthday parties are the best thing ever, after all. (Actually, this may only be a 'probably')
12) Had you had your heart broken yet?
Nnnno. This was before I went googoo for Speed Racer.
13) Were you Single/Taken/Married/Divorce?
I was single. Anything else would be creepy.
14) Any Kids?
GOD no. Well, a couple of baby dolls. But that's all.
***10 years ago today: 1998***
1) How old were you?
9!
2) Where did you go to school?
Deep Run Elementary, Mrs Garret's fourth grade classroom.
3) Where did you work?
I didn't, at all. I mean, besides doing chores around the house.
4) Where did you live?
Columbia, Maryland
5) Did you wear glasses?
Yes! Probably really heinous ones, too!
6) Who was your best friend?
Probably at that point still Shayda, but Veronica lived closer, and the three of us were pretty good buds together.
7) How many tattoos did you have?
Still zero. Probably *was* drawing on myself by that point, though nothing on a regular basis. Nowait. Yeah, no, I think it was at least a couple years before I *started* to regularly draw the ankh on my arm.
8) How many piercings?
Still zero.
9) What car did you drive?
Mum was driving a Toyota Previa. Did you know that there is an internet movie cars database? What the damn hell. http://www.imcdb.org/
10) Had your heart broken?
Mmm...no. Probably not, at least. I suppose the earliest that could possibly have happened would have been in fifth grade, when V and I started our unfortunate tendency to go for the same boy.
11) Were you Single/Taken?
I was totally single.
12) Any Kids?
Gooooodsno.
*****5 Years Ago: 2003****
1) How old were you?
14. Yep. Ninth grade.
2) What did you do?
Went to school, wrote things, railed against my stupid peers.
3) Where did you live?
Columbia, MD, still.
4) Did you wear glasses?
Yes! I think these were the frames just before the omfg wonderful blue/purple square emoframes that I am depressed are broken.
5) Who was your closest friend?
Veronica, beyond any doubt in anyone's mind. But! But but but, right around this point in the world, my world had begun to intersect with this one other random girl from the sluggy.net forums, a certain RiffsTrenchCoat...
6) Do you talk to your old friends?
I had lost a lot of track of Shayda. Most of my old friends were in high school with me, most notably Luna, who I had not talked to the previous two years. Ah, Miss Sharp's freshman English, with the two of us sitting next to each other the whole semester. That was beautifully dangerous.
7) How many piercings did you have?
Two? Yeah, two at that point. I was a real woman and EVERYthing!
8) How many tats you have?
Just whatever I doodled on myself. It was certainly past the point where I was regularly sketching the ankh, and probably past the point where I was drawing my eight pointed star on my inner wrist. I don't think I started writing 'MOOP!' there on a regular basis until some point in tenth grade. I may have been drawing my rune on the back of my left hand pretty regularly then, I know I used to do that a lot.
9) What kind of car did you have?
Mom had a Toyota Sienna called Catbus. Still does, unless something tragic has happened in the last few months.
10) Single/taken/married/divorced
Uhhhh....shit. Single, and very? Yeah, single and very. I'm pretty sure it was just before the whole 'telling Rohan I liked him' fiasco, and it was certainly long before he admitted anything to me.
11) Had your heart broken?
Dunno. Did losing out on Jeremy to Veronica break my heart? I think that I'm going to go with "no." on that one.
12) Any Children?
And at that point I vehemently didn't want them.
*****Today: 2008*****
1) How old are you?
19!
2) What do you do?
I write. I work as a retail bitch. I dance. I go to college. If I get my act together, I'll be doing some sort of silly work to make some money.
3) Where do you live?
Cambridge, MA <3 <3 <3
4) Do you wear glasses?
I wear my sunglasses at night, so I can, so I can, something something something morning light? Damned if I have any idea how that goes. Butyeah. I have to wear my sunglasses because my regular ones are roken, and I am BLIND without them.
5) Who are your closest friends?
Veronica remains my best friend. Lauren is probably my best friend at Lesley. Maddie knows a lot more about me than any of my housemates. Katters and Magus are both unbelievably close, as is jere7my, and to a certain extent, Herbert.
6) Do you talk to your old friends?
Not unless I'm supremely fond of them. I actually keep in decent touch with Veronica, Chris, and (somewhat) Eric. I wish I kept in better touch with Becky, and Jeremy. I also wish I kept in better touch with a bunch of the old S.n people, like Drummer_Dude, Crossroads, Plangkye, Luciel91, and -somewhat- JannyBlue.
7) How many piercings do you have?
One hole in each ear. I want an industrial in the left earlobe, and possibly a couple of cartilage piercings in the right. The rest of me is more than welcome to remain piercing free, however. (Though I love the way nose rings --not studs!-- look, and I've almost got a good enough stomach to pull off a belly button ring.)
8) How many tattoos?
Zero. No tattoos or additional piercings until I'm on my own medical insurance. Once I've got the ability and the money, however, I'm going to get a really nice solid black ankh on my right shoulderblade/back area. I've never been enough in love with anything else to put it into permanence, but getting the green and orange braid/celtic knot thing I drew from my shoulder to ankle the other day done permanently would be *incredibly* hot. Until I gained a million pounds.
9) What kind of car do you have?
The CharlieCard kind of car! It's the best!
10) Has your heart been broken?
Broken and broken hard. I think I've broken more people's hearts than have broken mine though, so I'm coming out ahead.
Annnnnd lastoff, this thing I swiped from Nathen, because he's awesome. And ohman, it even has one of those obnoxious "say anonymous things to people", and I actually *did* it! I must've been in a weird mood this morning.
Some notes to make it *slightly* less dickish: Seven and five are not people who have livejournals, one and three could probably apply to multiple people (but I had one specific person for each), and if you want to assume something's written to you, go right ahead. It amuses me most of all when that happens.
Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People Right Now:
1) Wow. You have a big frigging crush on me, don't you. Great. Another heart to break.
2) I'm starting to get really frustrated that I'm not a good enough songwriter to write you the song I want to write for you. The message kinda just boils down to "I love you", anyways, but still. You're an audiophile, I'm a writer, we need to combine these things, yeah?
3) Absolutely regardless of anything else, you sure have made my life a little bit more interesting. Thanks?
4) You look like my best friend, and that's really quite confusing. And just makes me miss her more.
5) You are a bitch and a failure as a parent and you need to just learn to let fucking go, because you are making too many people I care about suffer, either directly or indirectly.
6) While I wish you didn't love me, so I wouldn't hurt you with my lack of loving you, I'm really really glad that it led to us becoming closer friends. Thank you, I need an occasional dose of sanity sometimes.
7) Did you know you make me cry, somewhat regularly? You're the root of a lot of my problems, I think, and that's a really depressing thought, because you're just not supposed to be.
8) I have abso-fucking-loutly no reason whatsoever to be jealous of you. None! And in a way, that almost makes it worse, because that just makes me more insecure.
9) Will you let me fall asleep in your arms sometime? You have the annoying tendency to make me feel unguarded and safe, and that's the logical next step.
10) I love you. I miss you. I've no bloody idea why you put up with me, but I'm glad you do. And I wish I better knew how to say all the things to you I probably need to say.
Nine Things About Myself:
1) From the tenth to twentieth of October, my world is going to explode in a mass of insanity and over socialedness. I'm pretty sure it's either going to kill me, or be made of pure awesome.
2) This is the first year since third grade (or possibly earlier!) where I've been with my grade level for math. If I didn't need the credits so badly, I'd be ashamed.
3) I've been watching the leaves carefully, hoping, desperately, for the same sort of transcendent happiness I experienced last year. I know that that's the wrong way to go about it, but that hour was more euphoric than any experience prior or since.
4) I can tell when I'm about to tell someone something incredibly, dangerously, important. I can feel a sense of impending dread, and at that point, I just Know that whatever it is I've been deliberating, I'm going to go through with it. I think it most recently happened the night I told Janny I was having a panic attack --there was this knife edge I balanced on, where I had the words in the text box, and my hand hovered over the send button.
5) I constantly read, but do not rewrite, things I've written. The original Behind the Walls file has been read in part or in whole, dozens of times. I cannot leaf through an old notebook without *something* catching my eye, and sometimes even begging me to return to it.
6) I don't know where most of my mental problems stemmed from, and I wish I did.
7) Common themes of my daydreams: Fame, pain, forced independence, revenge, and being ostracized.
8) While I would almost infinitely prefer to wake up frigid freezing cold to waking up covered in a fine layer of sweat, the latter means I'll actually get out of bed.
9) My self is located on or behind my sternum, directly between my breasts. That's the point where the mental pain translates into physical sensation. When I'm hurt or scared or lost, my automatic reaction is to curl into a ball around that point, as tight as I can, ideally while on the floor, so I can press my forehead into the carpet.
Eight Ways to Win My Heart:
1) Pay attention to me. Seriously, nothing charms me like people noticing the things I say or do, and keeping track of them. Similarly, let me babble.
2) Be Geek. I haven't been attracted to a mundane since I was ten.
3) Be secure in yourself. Yes, I flirt with goddamn near everyone, but I'm falling asleep in your bed, aren't I?
4) Be secure in your gender and sexuality. Ideally secure enough so that you can wear a tailcoat or a skirt with equal flair, but, you know, ymmv. Note that this does not necessarily preclude being fluid in your gender/sexuality. Just know that actively resisting activities or behaviors because they are typically associated with a gender you do not list as, is not cool. (Alt: Be male, wear a skirt.)
5) Touch. The Sorcyress is a tactile-oriented person. If you do not hug/cuddle/hold hands/scritch/etc, at least with her, she's not interested.
6) Talk to me. If I'm interested, there is nothing better than reading long blocks of text you've written, especially if it's just for me.
7) Be silly. Because I am, very, and there's only so much seriousness I can tolerate before my brain leaks out my ears.
8) Love me. "Nothing is more attractive in a potential mate than their attraction to you."
Seven Things That Cross My Mind a Lot:
1) That one girl I know.
2) The fact that I'm really scared we're going to lose the election, and really hopeful that we're going to win it.
3) Quotes from really obscure sources.
4) Whether or not my meds might be having negative mental side effects that I've never really paid attention to
5) The fact that I need a job
6) Love
7) "Where the hell am I in relation to where I'm going?"
Six Things I Do Before I Fall Asleep:
1) When in Maryland, setting my alarm is almost ritualistic --I can't get into bed without first making sure the alarm is set, and on. In the rest of the world, I'm less driven about this, but I still make sure my phone is on, even if nothing is happening the following morning.
2) Take off my glasses and set them somewhere where I can find them in a pinch
3) Remove my bra --I absolutely re*fuse* to sleep with a bra on. Jeans, sure, and if I have to, I'll fall asleep wearing socks or slippers. The bra comes off though.
4) Daydream. Kinda dependent on how tired I am, butyeah. Every single night, even if I'm splitting the bed with someone else.
5) Snuggle against *something*. Be it another person, White Bear, Lazarus, or a spare pillow, I vastly prefer to sleep with at least one of my sides pressed against something soft and warm.
6) Close my eyes. If I lie down, and my eyes don't pretty much immediately shut, I'll get out of bed and screw around until I'm actually tired enough to really sleep.
Five People Who Mean a Lot:
1) You
2) You
3) You
4) You
5) and You.
Four Things I'm Wearing Right Now:
1) My ankh, the silver one. The wood one is on my bulletin board right now, and will probably stay there for a while.
2) My collar. Black, from petsmart, and with a silver 'K' hanging off it.
3) The word 'magnet' written on the back of my left hand, a reminder for science class.
4) My orange dress of absolute awesome. I love this thing above most others.
Three Songs I Listen to a Lot:
Currently?
1) I love it when you Call, by The Feeling
2) Lonesome Organist Rapes Paige Turner, by the Dresden Dolls
3) Down to Earth, by Peter Gabriel
In general?
1) Birdhouse in your Soul, by They Might Be Giants
2) 30/90 and/or Louder Than Words, from the tick, tick...BOOM! soundtrack
3) The Tower, by Vienna Teng
Two Things I Want to Do Before I Die:
1) Become immortal
2) Meet Tho
One Confession:
1) Isn't this entire meme just a confession of who I honestly am? An actual confession though? Forgive me Goddess, for I have sinned, and have not yet gotten around to eating a hot dog on Friday, without a bun. If I remember on this Friday, I promise! And if I can find a hot dog...
~Sor
MOOP!
So, let us start with the controversial meme, which starts like so:
[01] Do you have the guts to answer these questions and re-post as The Controversial Survey?
No! No I don't at all! That would be horrible, if people knew my stances on all sorts of serious issues. I am not SRS BZNS, guys.
Oooo, wait, it never said I had to give *honest* answers. MUAHAHAHAH, LOOPHOLE!!!
[02] Would you do meth if it was legalized?
Shit yes, I would! I do absolutely everything that it is legal for me to do, always, including smoke multiple packs of cigarettes a day, and buy porn like it's about to go out of style. I mean, what's the point of being allowed to do something if you don't actually do it, constantly.
[03] Abortion: for or against it?
I believe abortions should be legal up until the child has its nineteenth birthday. I'M TALKING ABOUT YOU, ALY! AHAHA, JK, JK!
[04] Do you think the world would fail with a female president?
Ahahahaha, yeah. She would totally be too busy buying shoes and dieting to run the entire world.
Alternate answer: The world would certainly not fail if it had a certain set of female co-dictators of the planet. Vote
kdsorceress/drama_angel3189![05] Do you believe in the death penalty?
Yes, for everyone who's ever commited any crime ever. I'M LOOKING AT YOU GUY WHO GAVE ME THE WRONG CHANGE AT STARBUCKS!
[06] Do you wish marijuana would be legalized already?
Yes, because then I could do it whenever possible. See number two.
[07] Are you for or against premarital sex?
It's not premarital if you never get married!
Seriously though, I have sex with like...twelve people a day. More if it's poly night at Diesel, since everyone knows that poly people are just 100 percent about the orgies, 100 percent of the time. In the past two hours, I've had sex five times, and I've only seen three people. Luckily, I have eight wives, so none of this is premarital at all.
[08] Do you believe in God?
Yeah, we play games every Tuesday and Thursday night. Fucker always wins at S****!, though.
[09] Do you think same sex marriage should be legalized?
I think people should only be allowed to get married if they can find eight people who dissaprove, and defeat them in a free-for-all steel cage match --the potential couple tied together, of course.
[10] Do you think it's wrong that so many Hispanics are illegally moving to the USA?
No, I only think it's wrong when they legally move here. THOSE ARE MY LEGAL RIGHTS YOU ASSHOLES ARE USING UP! I ONLY HAVE SO MANY AND I CAN HARDLY KEEP UP WITH ALL THE CIGS AND SEX AND PORN AND METH AS IT IS!
[11] A twelve year old girl has a baby, should she keep it?
Not if, you know, it looks delicious, no.
[12] Should the alcohol age be lowered to eighteen?
The...alcohol...age? I think there is something wrong with the syntax there.
I think the alcohol age should be lowered to twelve. That way, the babies will come out already pickled in a wine sauce, and be extra delicious when the aforementioned girl cooks them. Also, that way I can add boozahol to the list of legal things I partake in all the goddamn time.
[13] Should the war in Iraq be called off?
Yeah. I mean, who cares that they say potahto and we say potayto.
[14] Assisted suicide is illegal: do you agree?
Oh thank god. I'd hate to have to commit suicide just to assert my legal right to it.
[15] Do you believe in spanking your children?
...pretty much all my children to date have been made of water balloons. Spanking them makes them pop. Which, I mean, depending on your opinions, might actually be optimal.
[16] Would you burn an American flag for a million dollars?
My education, insufficient collection of graphic novels, lack of plane tickets to California, inability to buy sushi whenever the hell I want, and pyromania say 'Yes. Yes I would.'
Shit, did I just answer seriously? Uhhhh...PENIS, GUYS! HAHA, PENIS!
[17] Who do you think would make a better president? McCain or Obama?
McccccccBAMA!!!
Oho, you didn't expect THAT, did you?
(Vote
kdsorceress/drama_angel3189! Between the two of us, we've got four breasts! That's like...a breast octopus!! (It's not a good idea to actually count them, the whole bus stares at you))[18] Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers?
JUDGE NOT LEST ME JUDGE YOU A NEW BUTT-HOLE, BUDDY!
(If you caught that reference, you have made me a very happy Sor indeed. And...oo. Damnit. I don't have the time right now to go through four fucking thousand comics right now, just to catch up. I don't. I totally don't. No, really. Really. >.>)
Next up is this age thing I stole when rummaging through a random livejournal for the controversial meme. Warning, I am pretty sure it will make you feel old.
***Fifteen Years Ago 1993***
1) How old were you?
Uhhh....four. Yeeeeah.
2) Where did you go to school?
Some pre-school in Rockville. This is vaguely embarassing, really.
3) Where did you work?
My doll Kathy and I had a Most Excellent detective agency. Yep.
4) Where did you live?
In a townhouse in Rockville, MD
5) Where did you hang out?
At home, the playground.
6) Did you wear contacts?
Not then, no. It was at least another two years before I got my glasses.
7) Who were your friends?
Mom. Probably Trapper and Sue. Certainly Bruce. No one my age that I can recall.
8) How many tattoos did you have?
Ahahahah. Dude, I don't even think I was drawing on myself at that point.
9) How many piercings did you have?
Big fat zero. I was thirteen and a half or so when I got my ears pierced.
10) Did you drive a car?
BIG WHEELS YAH!!!
11) Had you been to a real party?
Oh, most certainly. Mom's New Years and Birthday parties are the best thing ever, after all. (Actually, this may only be a 'probably')
12) Had you had your heart broken yet?
Nnnno. This was before I went googoo for Speed Racer.
13) Were you Single/Taken/Married/Divorce?
I was single. Anything else would be creepy.
14) Any Kids?
GOD no. Well, a couple of baby dolls. But that's all.
***10 years ago today: 1998***
1) How old were you?
9!
2) Where did you go to school?
Deep Run Elementary, Mrs Garret's fourth grade classroom.
3) Where did you work?
I didn't, at all. I mean, besides doing chores around the house.
4) Where did you live?
Columbia, Maryland
5) Did you wear glasses?
Yes! Probably really heinous ones, too!
6) Who was your best friend?
Probably at that point still Shayda, but Veronica lived closer, and the three of us were pretty good buds together.
7) How many tattoos did you have?
Still zero. Probably *was* drawing on myself by that point, though nothing on a regular basis. Nowait. Yeah, no, I think it was at least a couple years before I *started* to regularly draw the ankh on my arm.
8) How many piercings?
Still zero.
9) What car did you drive?
Mum was driving a Toyota Previa. Did you know that there is an internet movie cars database? What the damn hell. http://www.imcdb.org/
10) Had your heart broken?
Mmm...no. Probably not, at least. I suppose the earliest that could possibly have happened would have been in fifth grade, when V and I started our unfortunate tendency to go for the same boy.
11) Were you Single/Taken?
I was totally single.
12) Any Kids?
Gooooodsno.
*****5 Years Ago: 2003****
1) How old were you?
14. Yep. Ninth grade.
2) What did you do?
Went to school, wrote things, railed against my stupid peers.
3) Where did you live?
Columbia, MD, still.
4) Did you wear glasses?
Yes! I think these were the frames just before the omfg wonderful blue/purple square emoframes that I am depressed are broken.
5) Who was your closest friend?
Veronica, beyond any doubt in anyone's mind. But! But but but, right around this point in the world, my world had begun to intersect with this one other random girl from the sluggy.net forums, a certain RiffsTrenchCoat...
6) Do you talk to your old friends?
I had lost a lot of track of Shayda. Most of my old friends were in high school with me, most notably Luna, who I had not talked to the previous two years. Ah, Miss Sharp's freshman English, with the two of us sitting next to each other the whole semester. That was beautifully dangerous.
7) How many piercings did you have?
Two? Yeah, two at that point. I was a real woman and EVERYthing!
8) How many tats you have?
Just whatever I doodled on myself. It was certainly past the point where I was regularly sketching the ankh, and probably past the point where I was drawing my eight pointed star on my inner wrist. I don't think I started writing 'MOOP!' there on a regular basis until some point in tenth grade. I may have been drawing my rune on the back of my left hand pretty regularly then, I know I used to do that a lot.
9) What kind of car did you have?
Mom had a Toyota Sienna called Catbus. Still does, unless something tragic has happened in the last few months.
10) Single/taken/married/divorced
Uhhhh....shit. Single, and very? Yeah, single and very. I'm pretty sure it was just before the whole 'telling Rohan I liked him' fiasco, and it was certainly long before he admitted anything to me.
11) Had your heart broken?
Dunno. Did losing out on Jeremy to Veronica break my heart? I think that I'm going to go with "no." on that one.
12) Any Children?
And at that point I vehemently didn't want them.
*****Today: 2008*****
1) How old are you?
19!
2) What do you do?
I write. I work as a retail bitch. I dance. I go to college. If I get my act together, I'll be doing some sort of silly work to make some money.
3) Where do you live?
Cambridge, MA <3 <3 <3
4) Do you wear glasses?
I wear my sunglasses at night, so I can, so I can, something something something morning light? Damned if I have any idea how that goes. Butyeah. I have to wear my sunglasses because my regular ones are roken, and I am BLIND without them.
5) Who are your closest friends?
Veronica remains my best friend. Lauren is probably my best friend at Lesley. Maddie knows a lot more about me than any of my housemates. Katters and Magus are both unbelievably close, as is jere7my, and to a certain extent, Herbert.
6) Do you talk to your old friends?
Not unless I'm supremely fond of them. I actually keep in decent touch with Veronica, Chris, and (somewhat) Eric. I wish I kept in better touch with Becky, and Jeremy. I also wish I kept in better touch with a bunch of the old S.n people, like Drummer_Dude, Crossroads, Plangkye, Luciel91, and -somewhat- JannyBlue.
7) How many piercings do you have?
One hole in each ear. I want an industrial in the left earlobe, and possibly a couple of cartilage piercings in the right. The rest of me is more than welcome to remain piercing free, however. (Though I love the way nose rings --not studs!-- look, and I've almost got a good enough stomach to pull off a belly button ring.)
8) How many tattoos?
Zero. No tattoos or additional piercings until I'm on my own medical insurance. Once I've got the ability and the money, however, I'm going to get a really nice solid black ankh on my right shoulderblade/back area. I've never been enough in love with anything else to put it into permanence, but getting the green and orange braid/celtic knot thing I drew from my shoulder to ankle the other day done permanently would be *incredibly* hot. Until I gained a million pounds.
9) What kind of car do you have?
The CharlieCard kind of car! It's the best!
10) Has your heart been broken?
Broken and broken hard. I think I've broken more people's hearts than have broken mine though, so I'm coming out ahead.
Annnnnd lastoff, this thing I swiped from Nathen, because he's awesome. And ohman, it even has one of those obnoxious "say anonymous things to people", and I actually *did* it! I must've been in a weird mood this morning.
Some notes to make it *slightly* less dickish: Seven and five are not people who have livejournals, one and three could probably apply to multiple people (but I had one specific person for each), and if you want to assume something's written to you, go right ahead. It amuses me most of all when that happens.
Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People Right Now:
1) Wow. You have a big frigging crush on me, don't you. Great. Another heart to break.
2) I'm starting to get really frustrated that I'm not a good enough songwriter to write you the song I want to write for you. The message kinda just boils down to "I love you", anyways, but still. You're an audiophile, I'm a writer, we need to combine these things, yeah?
3) Absolutely regardless of anything else, you sure have made my life a little bit more interesting. Thanks?
4) You look like my best friend, and that's really quite confusing. And just makes me miss her more.
5) You are a bitch and a failure as a parent and you need to just learn to let fucking go, because you are making too many people I care about suffer, either directly or indirectly.
6) While I wish you didn't love me, so I wouldn't hurt you with my lack of loving you, I'm really really glad that it led to us becoming closer friends. Thank you, I need an occasional dose of sanity sometimes.
7) Did you know you make me cry, somewhat regularly? You're the root of a lot of my problems, I think, and that's a really depressing thought, because you're just not supposed to be.
8) I have abso-fucking-loutly no reason whatsoever to be jealous of you. None! And in a way, that almost makes it worse, because that just makes me more insecure.
9) Will you let me fall asleep in your arms sometime? You have the annoying tendency to make me feel unguarded and safe, and that's the logical next step.
10) I love you. I miss you. I've no bloody idea why you put up with me, but I'm glad you do. And I wish I better knew how to say all the things to you I probably need to say.
Nine Things About Myself:
1) From the tenth to twentieth of October, my world is going to explode in a mass of insanity and over socialedness. I'm pretty sure it's either going to kill me, or be made of pure awesome.
2) This is the first year since third grade (or possibly earlier!) where I've been with my grade level for math. If I didn't need the credits so badly, I'd be ashamed.
3) I've been watching the leaves carefully, hoping, desperately, for the same sort of transcendent happiness I experienced last year. I know that that's the wrong way to go about it, but that hour was more euphoric than any experience prior or since.
4) I can tell when I'm about to tell someone something incredibly, dangerously, important. I can feel a sense of impending dread, and at that point, I just Know that whatever it is I've been deliberating, I'm going to go through with it. I think it most recently happened the night I told Janny I was having a panic attack --there was this knife edge I balanced on, where I had the words in the text box, and my hand hovered over the send button.
5) I constantly read, but do not rewrite, things I've written. The original Behind the Walls file has been read in part or in whole, dozens of times. I cannot leaf through an old notebook without *something* catching my eye, and sometimes even begging me to return to it.
6) I don't know where most of my mental problems stemmed from, and I wish I did.
7) Common themes of my daydreams: Fame, pain, forced independence, revenge, and being ostracized.
8) While I would almost infinitely prefer to wake up frigid freezing cold to waking up covered in a fine layer of sweat, the latter means I'll actually get out of bed.
9) My self is located on or behind my sternum, directly between my breasts. That's the point where the mental pain translates into physical sensation. When I'm hurt or scared or lost, my automatic reaction is to curl into a ball around that point, as tight as I can, ideally while on the floor, so I can press my forehead into the carpet.
Eight Ways to Win My Heart:
1) Pay attention to me. Seriously, nothing charms me like people noticing the things I say or do, and keeping track of them. Similarly, let me babble.
2) Be Geek. I haven't been attracted to a mundane since I was ten.
3) Be secure in yourself. Yes, I flirt with goddamn near everyone, but I'm falling asleep in your bed, aren't I?
4) Be secure in your gender and sexuality. Ideally secure enough so that you can wear a tailcoat or a skirt with equal flair, but, you know, ymmv. Note that this does not necessarily preclude being fluid in your gender/sexuality. Just know that actively resisting activities or behaviors because they are typically associated with a gender you do not list as, is not cool. (Alt: Be male, wear a skirt.)
5) Touch. The Sorcyress is a tactile-oriented person. If you do not hug/cuddle/hold hands/scritch/etc, at least with her, she's not interested.
6) Talk to me. If I'm interested, there is nothing better than reading long blocks of text you've written, especially if it's just for me.
7) Be silly. Because I am, very, and there's only so much seriousness I can tolerate before my brain leaks out my ears.
8) Love me. "Nothing is more attractive in a potential mate than their attraction to you."
Seven Things That Cross My Mind a Lot:
1) That one girl I know.
2) The fact that I'm really scared we're going to lose the election, and really hopeful that we're going to win it.
3) Quotes from really obscure sources.
4) Whether or not my meds might be having negative mental side effects that I've never really paid attention to
5) The fact that I need a job
6) Love
7) "Where the hell am I in relation to where I'm going?"
Six Things I Do Before I Fall Asleep:
1) When in Maryland, setting my alarm is almost ritualistic --I can't get into bed without first making sure the alarm is set, and on. In the rest of the world, I'm less driven about this, but I still make sure my phone is on, even if nothing is happening the following morning.
2) Take off my glasses and set them somewhere where I can find them in a pinch
3) Remove my bra --I absolutely re*fuse* to sleep with a bra on. Jeans, sure, and if I have to, I'll fall asleep wearing socks or slippers. The bra comes off though.
4) Daydream. Kinda dependent on how tired I am, butyeah. Every single night, even if I'm splitting the bed with someone else.
5) Snuggle against *something*. Be it another person, White Bear, Lazarus, or a spare pillow, I vastly prefer to sleep with at least one of my sides pressed against something soft and warm.
6) Close my eyes. If I lie down, and my eyes don't pretty much immediately shut, I'll get out of bed and screw around until I'm actually tired enough to really sleep.
Five People Who Mean a Lot:
1) You
2) You
3) You
4) You
5) and You.
Four Things I'm Wearing Right Now:
1) My ankh, the silver one. The wood one is on my bulletin board right now, and will probably stay there for a while.
2) My collar. Black, from petsmart, and with a silver 'K' hanging off it.
3) The word 'magnet' written on the back of my left hand, a reminder for science class.
4) My orange dress of absolute awesome. I love this thing above most others.
Three Songs I Listen to a Lot:
Currently?
1) I love it when you Call, by The Feeling
2) Lonesome Organist Rapes Paige Turner, by the Dresden Dolls
3) Down to Earth, by Peter Gabriel
In general?
1) Birdhouse in your Soul, by They Might Be Giants
2) 30/90 and/or Louder Than Words, from the tick, tick...BOOM! soundtrack
3) The Tower, by Vienna Teng
Two Things I Want to Do Before I Die:
1) Become immortal
2) Meet Tho
One Confession:
1) Isn't this entire meme just a confession of who I honestly am? An actual confession though? Forgive me Goddess, for I have sinned, and have not yet gotten around to eating a hot dog on Friday, without a bun. If I remember on this Friday, I promise! And if I can find a hot dog...
~Sor
MOOP!
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on 2008-10-08 04:04 am (UTC)no subject
on 2008-10-08 05:45 pm (UTC)~Sor
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on 2008-10-08 05:11 am (UTC)1) How old were you?
Uhhh....four. Yeeeeah.
*bangs cane*
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on 2008-10-08 05:45 pm (UTC)~Sor
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on 2008-10-08 05:25 am (UTC)no subject
on 2008-10-08 05:45 pm (UTC)Fuck. I don't know. I was tired and stuff. I want an industrial in the logical place for such things.
~Sor
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on 2008-10-08 05:28 am (UTC)watch you weave and breathe your storylines.
And that came out before you were born.
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on 2008-10-08 07:41 am (UTC)no subject
on 2008-10-08 05:01 pm (UTC)no subject
on 2008-10-08 05:44 pm (UTC)~Sor
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on 2008-10-08 06:01 pm (UTC)no subject
on 2008-10-08 05:44 pm (UTC)~Sor
Things in Lists
on 2008-10-08 05:37 am (UTC)10 things: I'll just assume they all apply to me... except the one you meant for me, which I'll likely inadvertently miss. *sigh*
9 things: *hug*
8 things: yup, yes, uh huh, *nod*, affirmative, OK, roger, check!
7 things: I wish had had paid more attention to #7 for myself in the past, but yeah 1, 2, 5, & 6.
6 things: #2 & #5 fer sure. #6 & #4 to some extent. The rest don't seem to apply.
5 things: Awww shucks, you say the sweetest things.
4 things: Yes, the orange dress is awesome. But a lot of it is you carrying it off.
3 things: How very odd. I seem to have gotten out of the habit of listening to specific music, rather than simply enjoying most of what I run into.
2 things: I should swipe #1.
1 thing: I confess I just don't know how you manage it.
Re: Things in Lists
on 2008-10-08 05:43 pm (UTC)9: Oo! *hugsback*
8: *giggles* You're off to a good start, then!
7: I actually meant that in a literal way, as in "okay, so, I'm on Mass Ave and trying to get to Davis Square", but the metaphorical way of looking at it is much more fun.
6: No alarms?
5: It's because I've got great friends!
4: Well, yeah. ;D
3: That's interesting. I enjoy a lot of things, but there are some things that I actively seek out.
2: You should!
1: Me neither.
~Sor
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on 2008-10-08 11:34 am (UTC)It's not premarital if you never get married!
*falls over into a heap of ferret giggles!*
YES! Avoid Pre-marital Sex by NEVER GETTING MARRIED! :boogie:
*is still reading the rest of this post, but just had to let that out first*
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on 2008-10-08 05:40 pm (UTC)~Sor
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on 2008-10-13 03:06 am (UTC)no subject
on 2008-10-08 01:28 pm (UTC)"...pretty much all my children to date have been made of water balloons."
ffffffffffffffffff I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
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on 2008-10-08 05:37 pm (UTC)...Dear
Bahahaha, I love you too Luna! We need to party hard over winter break, f'serious.
~Sor
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on 2008-10-09 01:59 am (UTC)no subject
on 2008-10-09 03:04 pm (UTC)And I totally got the Sluggy reference.
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on 2008-10-09 05:20 pm (UTC)And yeah, I am pretty awesome, aren't I? *preens*
~Sor
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on 2008-10-09 07:32 pm (UTC)no subject
on 2008-10-09 07:57 pm (UTC)~Sor