The sun has returned and so have I
Apr. 22nd, 2024 10:15 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sorcyressI am Doing My Best!
It's the part of the year where the sun has returned and there's only eight weeks left of school and I know coworker-Zach says tomorrow is the single worst teaching day of the year, but he's wrong, I have more energy, and that's enough to get my kids through.
(Even if I did have a moment during class 4 today where I found myself quoting one of my favourite Nish Kumar lines from Taskmaster: "I am going to do this if it kills me and everyone here". We're fine. WE'RE FINE. *eye twitches*)
Naw, though, I found myself walking while reading (more in a medialog) after school and also just bubbling to myself and once again had the reminder that the less neurotypical my behaviors, the better I am probably feeling1. I had sunshine and energy enough to mostly work on Projects, and I've actually scored full completion on both the work and not-work todo lists, and that's Not Nothing! That's good expectation-management (it's very easy to make a todo with an impossible number of things) and it's also good focus!
This evening's focus has been working on The Big Photo Project --I have tagged 1100/1614 photos! This sounds impressive and you know what, it genuinely is actually, well done kiddo. No minimizing, that's actually a great accomplishment!
...now let's not think about the fact that those 1614 photos are "phone 2021", the year I got the phone so it's really just "Aug-Dec 2021" and not counting any photos I took on the real camera (I was spitballing four figures worth of cicada photos, and I don't have the memory card on hand to check, but look, have you met me?). I'm pleased about it all though, getting my hands into photos Feels Good, and is a sight faster than any of the other digital organization projects I have right now.
I hope I can keep some of this energy up. It is, after all, Monday. Four normal weeks, four weird weeks, then we're done. That's a good thing, at least!
~Sor
MOOP!
1: Part of me thinks this might not be true, that it's a horseshoe --when I get real fucked up, I un-neurotypical as well, but I think that I'm a lot better at hiding Bad than Good, and also like...dissociating-into-silence is a much more neurotypically-acceptable weirdness than flapping (or the verbal equivalent), convince me I'm wrong.
It's the part of the year where the sun has returned and there's only eight weeks left of school and I know coworker-Zach says tomorrow is the single worst teaching day of the year, but he's wrong, I have more energy, and that's enough to get my kids through.
(Even if I did have a moment during class 4 today where I found myself quoting one of my favourite Nish Kumar lines from Taskmaster: "I am going to do this if it kills me and everyone here". We're fine. WE'RE FINE. *eye twitches*)
Naw, though, I found myself walking while reading (more in a medialog) after school and also just bubbling to myself and once again had the reminder that the less neurotypical my behaviors, the better I am probably feeling1. I had sunshine and energy enough to mostly work on Projects, and I've actually scored full completion on both the work and not-work todo lists, and that's Not Nothing! That's good expectation-management (it's very easy to make a todo with an impossible number of things) and it's also good focus!
This evening's focus has been working on The Big Photo Project --I have tagged 1100/1614 photos! This sounds impressive and you know what, it genuinely is actually, well done kiddo. No minimizing, that's actually a great accomplishment!
...now let's not think about the fact that those 1614 photos are "phone 2021", the year I got the phone so it's really just "Aug-Dec 2021" and not counting any photos I took on the real camera (I was spitballing four figures worth of cicada photos, and I don't have the memory card on hand to check, but look, have you met me?). I'm pleased about it all though, getting my hands into photos Feels Good, and is a sight faster than any of the other digital organization projects I have right now.
I hope I can keep some of this energy up. It is, after all, Monday. Four normal weeks, four weird weeks, then we're done. That's a good thing, at least!
~Sor
MOOP!
1: Part of me thinks this might not be true, that it's a horseshoe --when I get real fucked up, I un-neurotypical as well, but I think that I'm a lot better at hiding Bad than Good, and also like...dissociating-into-silence is a much more neurotypically-acceptable weirdness than flapping (or the verbal equivalent), convince me I'm wrong.
U curve is a thing
on 2024-04-23 01:02 pm (UTC)