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[sorcyress]

Today was pretty good!

I am still doing the cards, more or less. Some stuff I've learned about myself during isolation partytimes:

Terminal. Optimist. This is not news in any way shape or form, but dang, I feel guilty that I'm still happy and having a pretty good time of things.

Ten hours of sleep is too much and makes me feel rotten. It looks like 8 is just about perfect. This is more than I would like, but less than I feared. More data collection to happen soon!

I work best in the mornings! I didn't think I was a morning person, but I do apparently do alright for myself while getting breakfast and stuff. I'm more likely to succumb to dumb phone games and the like when it's later in the day.

Creative challenges are _really_ good for me. Alphastack! --today's taskmaster challenge was to create a stack of things with a up top and z on the bottom. Mine uses all 26 letters, is much taller than I am, and is _frankly a work of art_.

I also made a books-only stack that I'm pretty proud of as well, but that didn't take me like an hour to assemble, nor did it cause me to spill whiskey on the floor. Anyways, these little dumb tasks have been UNBELIEVABLY GOOD FOR ME because they give me something to do (like make forts or stack things!)

The dream job is absolutely the dream job. I now know of at least three private schools that are trying to continue on with full normal teaching schedules and like...what the absolute fuck, how do you expect teachers *or* students to sustain that?

I mean, it's not great that our first priority has to be "feed children" but I'm glad it has been! And I'm thrilled that we're in "provide students with enrichment activities and opportunities to make up work but explicitly do not give new graded assignments" mode because although the equity issues around it suck, I am so grateful that we are letting kids get used to the new normal (for however long it will be) without overwhelming them with SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL.

It turns out I absolutely can keep my room clean and my emails regularly read, and in fact, establishing baselines for both of those will help even more with having me do them more often. I have under 2000 unread emails for the first time in...uh...not sure, but it's been a _long_ time since I last managed to maintain Inbox zero. (I actually did pretty well with it then too, but then it all fell to shit, probably during the Depression Year.)

I get to text people and talk in chatrooms and jegus you have no idea how much 2006!Sor is floating right now. Gosh, I really ought to ping Thorog, shouldn't I??

Anyways, I am a creature *built* of text. Please let me use it as a way to talk to y'all. Please talk to me back that way!

I have a circus tent and that's good to use for meetings. Slightly cramped, but can be well enough lit and most importantly does not let coworkers see my room.

I love my room _so much_, I have put a lot of myself into it and made it a beautiful, crowded, delightful place. It bursts with life much the same way I do. And absolutely not are people I professionally lie to every day welcome within it. I don't care that the sex toys aren't out visibly or that no one would object to the rainbow flags or altar. My room is a safe space and a sacred space and I don't let people who aren't allowed to see the true me in.

Gonna go update cards for tomorrow and then go to bed. Goodnight, y'all!

~Sor
MOOP!

Comments

[choco_frosh]

Circus tent?

[sorcyress]

Okay, I really need to film a little video of my room sometime. Maybe that will be today's creative project!

~Sor

[illxmetxbyxmoonlight]

My room is a safe space and a sacred space and I don't let people who aren't allowed to see the true me in.

This is beautiful, and really speaks to me.

This is how I feel about the apartment. The front of the apartment more than our room, even.

I have put so much of myself, so much love, so much simple caring into this place. It's a wonderful space for me to live in.

But I also only bring people in that I /want/ here.

[sorcyress]

The front room of your apartment, every time I get to be there, feels like...

Okay, it is wrong to say it feels like home, because it doesn't, it's not my place. But it feels like it's somebody's Home, not just the place they live, but the place that is THEIRS. It feels like I want my bedroom to feel!

I love your front room, I find it beautiful and soothing and wonderful to be in!

[illxmetxbyxmoonlight]

That is a glorious compliment.

That feeling...it's something I want so much to create. So much I want to /be/ in the places I live.

I'm so glad you feel it.