IX

[sorcyress]

I watched the newest Star Wars! Many disconnected spoilery thoughts below:

• Something I don't know that I've seen people talking about, I really _really_ love and relate to how playful Rey is. Like...so much of what she does (especially it seems when she's alone) involves her playing. The chief scene was at the very end of the movie, when she slid down into Luke's house on scrap, but I feel it's a thread throughout. (And it goes well with the trauma-informed readings of Rey that suggest that, post-scavenger, she absolutely hoards food.)



• Carrie Fisher says "nothing is impossible" and I burst into tears. I could feel it was a _bad_ attack of them, and I managed to push it down pretty fast, because I didn't want to spend the rest of the movie sobbing. I did cry a lot, but it was mostly good stuff.
  
  But like...I was _just_ falling into need with sweary anxious space mom when she died, and it's just so devastating and unfair. And then to have her brought back to life, even for a few moments, and to say "nothing is impossible" like she really could return and it was all a joke, all along? Jeeze, I'm shocked I was able to calm down, really.



• Hows bout that ending space battle? It was _so good_. I especially adored how hard the score went at that point in the movie, like, they had barely used main theme the whole time and then they just cranked it out and it was SO GOOD! Also, man, that first shot of all the ships hit me right in the space feels, and felt like such a neat callout that I knew I wouldn't recognize.



• Okay fine, let's talk about the stupid-fuck-ass-stupid kiss between our girl Rey, and the love-the-actor-hate-the-role incel Kylo. Or really, let's not, because I was actually super into the relationship between them up until that instance. Real bummer to have it happen, when I was hoping so hard it wouldn't.
  
  Here's my problem: Rey and Ben at the end of the movie actually really strongly had a relationship dynamic that I *adore*. I am super into fictional relationships that are incredibly strong complete-each-other pairships, especially with bonus sibling-edge of one-upmanship and getting on each others' last nerve, ideally by first getting on each others fifth-to-last nerve. That shot of the two of them, lit by Luke and Leia's sabers? Oh god _oh god_ I was so so so so so happy and impressed. It looked magnificent.
  
  I want them to be important to each other. I want them to just...get each other. I want them to be close and complicated and messy, and honestly, cuddling would be so fine, but kissing is...gah!
  
  Rails before pails, okay? Just...rails before pails.



• MY PAL LANDO! Hitting on everything that moves and lookin' damn fine all the time! IN-to it



• Very disappoint by no Ewoks except for that one half-second shot.



• Oh, retroactively disappointed that finally Ben gets to save Rey, especially because it was SO GREAT in the Pratorian guard scene last movie that he never did. Wevs. The rest of that scene was fucking gold.



• This movie introduced SO MUCH BATSHIT FORCE POWERS and I am completely here for it, especially because I am someone who loves fantasy, and loves space. And space =/= sci-fi, so getting really good space fantasy is SO GREAT Y'ALL!
  
  I'm especially super into any of the Rey-Kylo blending scenes (and of _course_ the Rey-Ben one at the end, holy shit) and the ways they fell into each others worlds. God, just...give me more kinds of intimate relationships, I think is what this boils down to.



• more rose more rose More Rose More Rose MORE ROSE



• Also in retrospect, realized we never do find out what Finn wanted to tell Rey. He's impulsive and dumb, so it was probably "I love you" but wevs.



• HOW ABOUT THAT ENDING HUG THOUGH?! The trio, together, in each others arms, and clinging so hard they're gonna have bruises but jegus god, can't let go of my family because I love them so goddamn much? My polyam-heart grew three sizes this day.



• I know that Rey can't actually succumb to the dark side, not because she has protagonist armor, but because she is *such* a Protector of the Small. Don't believe me? Watch how much she tries to take care of and give softness and joy to all droids and children. Especially droids. Her taking care of D-0 is a delight.



• Awww, my anxiety-droid got to make me cry. Beautiful acting from a static golden mask. I love you, Threepio, and I'm real glad you came back to your senses at the end.

I am so tired I can't think straight, so nothing else right now. Comments are gonna be filled with spoilers for all Star Wars products. (I've not seen Mandalorian, but I don't care about getting spoiled for it.)

~Sor
MOOP!