"This is goals" said about me, is such a fascinating thing to hear.
I don't think of myself as a particularly good role model --it's along similar lines to how I don't think of myself as cool. But I am treated as cool by some of the younger twenty-somethings I know, and I am seen as a role model every once in a while alongside it. I know I'm a trainwreck disasterperson, but there's good alongside it as well. Being able to force myself to do something like this is part of that.
(I am not cool --and have a very visceral reaction to the word, due to years and years and years of having grown up with the cool/geek dichotomy and being so thoroughly on the other side-- but I am extremely self-aware and extremely self-assured and I don't tend to care much what other people think of me. That looks much the same as cool, from the outside.)
FWIW, the self-discipline took ten years to get to. And I didn't write hardly anything the years I was depressed -- I think I wrote less than 150 days total across all of 2017 and 2018 combined.
But thank you. I am also a little bit in awe of myself right now.
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on 2019-12-10 06:02 pm (UTC)I don't think of myself as a particularly good role model --it's along similar lines to how I don't think of myself as cool. But I am treated as cool by some of the younger twenty-somethings I know, and I am seen as a role model every once in a while alongside it. I know I'm a trainwreck disasterperson, but there's good alongside it as well. Being able to force myself to do something like this is part of that.
(I am not cool --and have a very visceral reaction to the word, due to years and years and years of having grown up with the cool/geek dichotomy and being so thoroughly on the other side-- but I am extremely self-aware and extremely self-assured and I don't tend to care much what other people think of me. That looks much the same as cool, from the outside.)
FWIW, the self-discipline took ten years to get to. And I didn't write hardly anything the years I was depressed -- I think I wrote less than 150 days total across all of 2017 and 2018 combined.
But thank you. I am also a little bit in awe of myself right now.
~Sor