MOOP!

Nudity with fewer people is more terrifying, yes, but nudity in groups doesn't stop being scary for me, in the back of my mind. Especially if there's any sort of focus on me, like at strip dreidl (where there is focus on everyone in turn, as they strip) or if I'm having to deal with other difficult social things.

I think part of the problem is that it's hard for me to find a group(large) that consists entirely of people who I know are indifferent to me and people who I know are attracted to me and are safe. Because of the boldness to my flirting style, there are a lot of people out there who have given me some degree of impression that they are some degree of interested, and if nothing else, given the *time* it takes to trust someone, the likelihood that a naked party contains at least one person who is untrusted and attracted is reasonably high.

Sometimes I can get my brain around it anyways, and sometimes the space feels safe enough, or I have sufficient protection in other ways, but in general, I trust people a lot less than I used to not to take advantage of my body, and I don't want to expose any vulnerability.

~Sor