And it's crying for ten minutes after everything is done with, with pure unadulterated rage, and part of the rage is sheer hatred for yourself for being so utterly unreasonable as to have an emotional response to someone hurting you. Because society says that that is the so utterly typical female reaction, and that such a reaction is wrong
i go through this a lot. and of course the last thing *I* need is something else to feel bad about myself.. i grew up being called a crybaby because i would bust out in tears whenever i became enraged (well, i'd bust out in tears at personal slights too but it doesn't help to be laughed for crying when you're effing furious. Icky ex#2 used to do that.)
i'm not sure what my point is here at all other than to say you're not alone and i love you and everyone loves you and society is stupid and cheese is wonderful and where are my flying cars already.
i wish i could be more useful/coherent but i'm busy being an emotional female because my severely disabled child has been out of school all week and the sewers are backing up (again for the third time) and my stupid female hormones are doing roller coaster things to me in such a way that i ended crying for hours yesterday after an incident with someone who i know likes (loves? nah, i wouldn't go that far) me and would probly be horrified to know that i dipped right into sucidalness over what they said to me because my emotions were just that wonky...
Soyar. Apologies for the emo and i'm with you on the rage. You want me for to set 'em on fire? i'd be glad to. :|
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This comment is more about emotional reactions than anything else...
on 2010-02-03 09:16 pm (UTC)i go through this a lot. and of course the last thing *I* need is something else to feel bad about myself.. i grew up being called a crybaby because i would bust out in tears whenever i became enraged (well, i'd bust out in tears at personal slights too but it doesn't help to be laughed for crying when you're effing furious. Icky ex#2 used to do that.)
i'm not sure what my point is here at all other than to say you're not alone and i love you and everyone loves you and society is stupid and cheese is wonderful and where are my flying cars already.
i wish i could be more useful/coherent but i'm busy being an emotional female because my severely disabled child has been out of school all week and the sewers are backing up (again for the third time) and my stupid female hormones are doing roller coaster things to me in such a way that i ended crying for hours yesterday after an incident with someone who i know likes (loves? nah, i wouldn't go that far) me and would probly be horrified to know that i dipped right into sucidalness over what they said to me because my emotions were just that wonky...
Soyar. Apologies for the emo and i'm with you on the rage. You want me for to set 'em on fire? i'd be glad to. :|