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sorcyressI...think I just had a nightmare.
I am lucky enough, blessed enough, that I do not get nightmares often.1 Actually, this paired with this dream from the summer makes two in about eight months which is...a lot, for me. Luckily, this one does not have such a vivid imprint of what happened, instead, it has the lasting mental side effects, the clearest and worst of which is that I am right now decidedly touch-negative.
The really *really* impressive part of this, though, is that I can now legitimately say that Stevan Moffet has given me nightmares. There was a heavy sci-fi bend to the whole dream, and I think parts of it had the same feel as one of the scary episodes of Who. Other themes I remember? I was a prisoner, trying to escape and not yet good enough. I was being trained or watching someone be trained who was Just Not Good Enough to please her/my master. I...feel like there was an undercurrent of (sexual?) child abuse as well, as a feel, but I just don't remember well enough.
And yet, the traces fade. I think I am okay to go be held, and feel safe. Safety is, after all, key.
~Sor
MOOP!
1: I get disturbingly sexual dreams once in a while, which tend to leave me feeling off, but are not nightmares per se.
I am lucky enough, blessed enough, that I do not get nightmares often.1 Actually, this paired with this dream from the summer makes two in about eight months which is...a lot, for me. Luckily, this one does not have such a vivid imprint of what happened, instead, it has the lasting mental side effects, the clearest and worst of which is that I am right now decidedly touch-negative.
The really *really* impressive part of this, though, is that I can now legitimately say that Stevan Moffet has given me nightmares. There was a heavy sci-fi bend to the whole dream, and I think parts of it had the same feel as one of the scary episodes of Who. Other themes I remember? I was a prisoner, trying to escape and not yet good enough. I was being trained or watching someone be trained who was Just Not Good Enough to please her/my master. I...feel like there was an undercurrent of (sexual?) child abuse as well, as a feel, but I just don't remember well enough.
And yet, the traces fade. I think I am okay to go be held, and feel safe. Safety is, after all, key.
~Sor
MOOP!
1: I get disturbingly sexual dreams once in a while, which tend to leave me feeling off, but are not nightmares per se.
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on 2009-02-10 07:26 pm (UTC)Thank you, Harena.
~Sor
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on 2009-02-11 07:23 pm (UTC)no subject
on 2009-02-12 12:09 am (UTC)~Sor