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[sorcyress]

...yeah. I assume it's the spring, but things are suddenly going Kinda Alright and frankly I'm fucking terrified. I'm especially terrified because it doesn't feel _different_, it doesn't feel like I've done some cool paradigm shift like when I came up with the PBRB¹ protocol or anything, it just...feels like me. Like still distraction and video games and wanting to sleep (and writing my words instead of doing something for class) and everything last minute but also like...kinda on top of it?

This morning I got up when the alarm rang at 5:15, and I looked fondly at the bed, and I did not return. Day one.

But hey, day one is the first step to getting to day *checks wordcount* 117.

~Sor
MOOP!

1: Push Button, Receive Bacon. One of a great many brain-games I played with myself for a week and then forget about entirely and forever. I have a vague goal of making a big ol' google doc of these that I can share with other ADHD friends who would like dumb brain-games to trick their brains into getting things done occasionally.

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[tricia868]

if you ever make that google doc, I'd love to see it.

(one of my techniques lately has been a pretty bowl of pretty rocks on my desk at work. it started out empty, but whenever I cross a thing off my to-do list, I get to put another rock in the bowl. I have a bag of them that I reach into without looking, so it's always a surprise what color rock I get.)

I'm glad you're doing alright even if it is also terrifying!

[squirrelitude]

One day, maybe 8 years ago, I gained the ability to just get out of bed when the alarm sounded and not try to crawl back in. I still don't know why it happened, but it somehow just stuck with me.

[sorcyress]

I've done it two days in a row, so I'll catch up with you in about...2,920 days! I CAN DO IT!

(Also you suck)

~Sor

[squirrelitude]

It's funny though, this happened at a time when I was trying to shift my wakeup time back from late o'clock to like 6:00 AM. The effort *completely failed*, but I started being able to come awake right away at 8:00 AM or whatever my alarm was set for afterwards. I still can't do the early wakeup, so it was a mixed bag on the whole.