When I first tried therapy, the single scariest thought about the notion was "does this mean I can no longer tell myself that I can handle it with just my internal resources?" (The therapists turned out to suck, so I get to tell myself that I handled depression _and_ those idiots at the same time, so there, so the thought actually still kinda stands.)
Also, there was a time when I was seriously thinking about it. My mode of cope was to choose a specific not-too-handy way, and then make damn sure to not make it available to myself while in a mood. (Now it's even less handy, which did make my year in MD extra hard...)
Anyhow, you're not alone in the crazy and the coping, and you most assuredly deserve lots of credit for coping and for being pretty damn awesome already.
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ninetydegrees
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on 2010-06-17 02:43 am (UTC)Also, there was a time when I was seriously thinking about it. My mode of cope was to choose a specific not-too-handy way, and then make damn sure to not make it available to myself while in a mood. (Now it's even less handy, which did make my year in MD extra hard...)
Anyhow, you're not alone in the crazy and the coping, and you most assuredly deserve lots of credit for coping and for being pretty damn awesome already.