It's always good to see that.. i had to write a post-it note & hang it by my computer to remind me that Talia likes long comments back when i'd go on & on & on in her elljay because i was always so sure that i was annoying her with them ;p
That said, sometimes stuff does get stuck in my head because i guess it is zooping around so quickly in there that i can't quite pin what i'm thinking down. i think possibly part of what was in there was this horrified notion that you thought/think that you cannot allow yourself to love and man, all you need is love and if you don't have love then what's the point & so on... so you see this is the very base of my being & i freak out a little (regardless of whether it's appropriate or not) if i think i see someone who is not going to have the benefit of knowing love.
But i was also confused because you are one of the most loving people i know and then i thought well, she means that other "love" and then that reverts me back to the long discussions W&I have had about "what is love anyway?" and society's expectations & whatnot and us probly getting way too spastic about the whole thing.
And see, i thought we had that love thing in common so i was confused about how opposite we were and then i realize i'm doing that Black & White thinking thing again whereby it doesn't have to be All or Nothing, does it?
*remembers to breathe again*
i often feel like i think too much but as Swinger once told me quite a long time ago, i don't think too much, i just listen too much.
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on 2009-01-22 09:38 pm (UTC)Heh, i do forget to do that sometimes >.>
It's always good to see that.. i had to write a post-it note & hang it by my computer to remind me that Talia likes long comments back when i'd go on & on & on in her elljay because i was always so sure that i was annoying her with them ;p
That said, sometimes stuff does get stuck in my head because i guess it is zooping around so quickly in there that i can't quite pin what i'm thinking down. i think possibly part of what was in there was this horrified notion that you thought/think that you cannot allow yourself to love and man, all you need is love and if you don't have love then what's the point & so on... so you see this is the very base of my being & i freak out a little (regardless of whether it's appropriate or not) if i think i see someone who is not going to have the benefit of knowing love.
But i was also confused because you are one of the most loving people i know and then i thought well, she means that other "love" and then that reverts me back to the long discussions W&I have had about "what is love anyway?" and society's expectations & whatnot and us probly getting way too spastic about the whole thing.
And see, i thought we had that love thing in common so i was confused about how opposite we were and then i realize i'm doing that Black & White thinking thing again whereby it doesn't have to be All or Nothing, does it?
*remembers to breathe again*
i often feel like i think too much but as Swinger once told me quite a long time ago, i don't think too much, i just listen too much.