Time to go off on a tangent...
Jun. 2nd, 2004 07:10 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sorcyress(((This is a tangent post, meaning I'm liable to get started and just type, and not keep on any one topic.)))
It was pointed out to me recently that I'm growing up, and thats part of why I'm changing so much.
And thats very true.
The problem is, I'm growing in a completely different direction from my friends. And yet...I grow not at all.
I am still very very young at heart. I find great joy in rollar coasters and swingsets...
I love swings. I just swing and swing and swing, as high as I possibly can.
'Course, I can't do that anymore, not when the groups around, 'cause of all that synchrononity crap.
I am much younger at heart then the rest of the group. But at the same time, I'm terribly older. I do not understand their games, their customs, their wants and desires. It is almost as though I have been completely removed from their group. Abducted, and then had my brain washed out of their ideas and let sit, to grow ideas of my own.
I can remeber a time when I was on the same wavelength as they. When all I wanted was to be held and hugged, kissed and cuddled.
I still like hugs. A lot. Kind of a way to say "I love you" to someone without just saying it and getting funny looks.
I love you is a funny little phrase. I can remember one time with Veronica when I told her I loved her, but not in a romantic way. It was just the two of us, and it was almost embaressing to admit to my friend that I loved them. That was a long time ago.
Nowadays, I love everyone, and tell them so! If someone does something I like a lot, I will grin and say something along the lines of "I love you so much."
And they will grin and usually agree, by stating that they love me as well. Or, if their a senior techie with an ego to rival Zaphods, they'll simply smile and say "I love me too."
Oh wait. Forgot. He's gone now. Graduated. Dammit.
Damm you.
Couldn't wait another year? *sigh*
no, you really couldn't. You've got collage and all that entails. at least I have ways to keep in touch with you.
*double sigh*
Next year is going to be quieter, not as much fun. Of course, I'm going to say that every year. Senior years going to be the worst. I'll be going somewhere where I don't know anyone, and I'll be leaving three years of friends behind.
Dammit, I miss the seniors. It's been a week and I hate it.
I'm not sure I relized how centrally dependent I was on them 'til they left.
Of course, what I'm really dependent on is hugs. I like them. a lot. They're what keep me going.
It's hard to not hug people. Especially when I love them as much as I love you babe. Wife. *sigh*. I rarely meet people who won't always take my hugs. It's amusing to surprise people with hugs though.
A mini I love you.
*sends hugs out to everyone*
~Sorceress/Kat
MOOP!
Original Tags: growing up, relationships, age, unfiled people, fish, friends, cloneconvo, thoughtstream, v, rlife, gendersex, unfiled people-lrhs, tagged, hugs, cuddling
It was pointed out to me recently that I'm growing up, and thats part of why I'm changing so much.
And thats very true.
The problem is, I'm growing in a completely different direction from my friends. And yet...I grow not at all.
I am still very very young at heart. I find great joy in rollar coasters and swingsets...
I love swings. I just swing and swing and swing, as high as I possibly can.
'Course, I can't do that anymore, not when the groups around, 'cause of all that synchrononity crap.
I am much younger at heart then the rest of the group. But at the same time, I'm terribly older. I do not understand their games, their customs, their wants and desires. It is almost as though I have been completely removed from their group. Abducted, and then had my brain washed out of their ideas and let sit, to grow ideas of my own.
I can remeber a time when I was on the same wavelength as they. When all I wanted was to be held and hugged, kissed and cuddled.
I still like hugs. A lot. Kind of a way to say "I love you" to someone without just saying it and getting funny looks.
I love you is a funny little phrase. I can remember one time with Veronica when I told her I loved her, but not in a romantic way. It was just the two of us, and it was almost embaressing to admit to my friend that I loved them. That was a long time ago.
Nowadays, I love everyone, and tell them so! If someone does something I like a lot, I will grin and say something along the lines of "I love you so much."
And they will grin and usually agree, by stating that they love me as well. Or, if their a senior techie with an ego to rival Zaphods, they'll simply smile and say "I love me too."
Oh wait. Forgot. He's gone now. Graduated. Dammit.
Damm you.
Couldn't wait another year? *sigh*
no, you really couldn't. You've got collage and all that entails. at least I have ways to keep in touch with you.
*double sigh*
Next year is going to be quieter, not as much fun. Of course, I'm going to say that every year. Senior years going to be the worst. I'll be going somewhere where I don't know anyone, and I'll be leaving three years of friends behind.
Dammit, I miss the seniors. It's been a week and I hate it.
I'm not sure I relized how centrally dependent I was on them 'til they left.
Of course, what I'm really dependent on is hugs. I like them. a lot. They're what keep me going.
It's hard to not hug people. Especially when I love them as much as I love you babe. Wife. *sigh*. I rarely meet people who won't always take my hugs. It's amusing to surprise people with hugs though.
A mini I love you.
*sends hugs out to everyone*
~Sorceress/Kat
MOOP!
Original Tags: growing up, relationships, age, unfiled people, fish, friends, cloneconvo, thoughtstream, v, rlife, gendersex, unfiled people-lrhs, tagged, hugs, cuddling
