What you choose to define your relationship to God is fine, but before accepting the label of Satanist, you might want a closer look at early Christianity or certain sects of Buddhism.
http://southerncrossreview.org/29/pagels.htm is a different view of the struggles to accept faith. Pagels went through Hell, but as a theologian, she used that experience to look back on the early church and find something that spoke to her.
Several times I've found that peace and love you're speaking of. While I am a baptized Christian, I would have to turn to Buddhism and say that I felt like I was brushing against nirvana. Not there exactly, but close.
We all have times like you've written about and I've cried my guts out many times. I can't be there for you in person, but I do love you.
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on 2007-12-21 11:36 am (UTC)http://southerncrossreview.org/29/pagels.htm is a different view of the struggles to accept faith. Pagels went through Hell, but as a theologian, she used that experience to look back on the early church and find something that spoke to her.
Several times I've found that peace and love you're speaking of. While I am a baptized Christian, I would have to turn to Buddhism and say that I felt like I was brushing against nirvana. Not there exactly, but close.
We all have times like you've written about and I've cried my guts out many times. I can't be there for you in person, but I do love you.