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Reading books is what's making me happiest right now. Video games some, and soon, working on building community. But reading books is good, is safe, is gentle, is home.
It is a truly awful thing, all of it. I cried for nearly an hour yesterday morning, the whole time from waking up until leaving the house to work. I haven't cried since. Dissociated far enough into shock that I don't have to.
None of it changes the work I do. None of it changes the ways I try to help my students, try to build community with other dancers, try to love the people I meet. The world is going to change, unrecognizably and swift, but I am not changing amidst it. I am still put on this planet to read books and to find joy and to love.
This entry feels like it should be so much more, but no. I think this is it. I love you, and I want you to stay here with me.
~Sor
MOOP!
It is a truly awful thing, all of it. I cried for nearly an hour yesterday morning, the whole time from waking up until leaving the house to work. I haven't cried since. Dissociated far enough into shock that I don't have to.
None of it changes the work I do. None of it changes the ways I try to help my students, try to build community with other dancers, try to love the people I meet. The world is going to change, unrecognizably and swift, but I am not changing amidst it. I am still put on this planet to read books and to find joy and to love.
This entry feels like it should be so much more, but no. I think this is it. I love you, and I want you to stay here with me.
~Sor
MOOP!