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Monday Accomplishments:

Work:
*The usual, but slightly less so than normal, because we're on the slow slide down into "almost finals". Also I was ten minutes late because I couldn't get my brain to fucking leave the house.

Dance:
*Ran half of the intermediate class, as a candidate class practice lesson. I think it went reasonably well? The covering looked really nice between the sets, and that's what I was hyperfocusing my lesson on because the dance was dead simple.
*Also danced for all of Laura's lesson. Then I briefed a dance. Then I _went home_.

Body:
*nnn.
*But I did like actually eat dinner, too. That part's good.

Personal:
*Still somehow managing to keep writing my words. Pleased about it.
*Didn't write my accomplishments post for yesterday, but I'm doing it right now, and that's okay. Even if it's because I'm being avodant towards other things I should do, it's still okay.

Therapy:
*Had a brief but awful breakdown inspired by a lot of things. Even as I was beginning it, fully recognized "this is because I am very hungry" and I ate and cried and then finished eating and was done crying. I like...like that I know how my body works, but also sigh.
*Good honest communication, yay me. With at least two different people, double yay.
*Beginning to recognize and investigate a More Different Path, which will at minimum result in me doing some research, gaining some empathy, and maybe having another few tools for my toolbox.

~Sor
MOOP!

(Note: I think I am planning to do daily accomplishments posts for a whole month, and then let them go. They will probably still be posting for a bit after that, but I won't put any pressure on myself to do or not them.)

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Accomplishments:

Work:
*The usual
*Also facilitated a focus group between my students and a woman from the EDC. That was kinda cool!
*Made a dodecahedron during NEST (and a little after). It's rainbow! (gaaaaaay)
*Survived a lockdown drill without gibbering. Which is miles better than the last one. I had my hands full of origami and no students, so that helped a lot.

Therapy:
*Did not talk about the things I meant to talk about
*Instead spent the _entire time_ talking about dance, which I feel is very en pointe
*I am incredibly proud of that pun and made it first to Austin then immediately to twitter.

Social:
*Post therapy I got dinner with Lemur! That was lovely and a lot of fun!
*Lemur gave me a trainstrans pin! This is funny because I'm still not sure I like the word trans for myself, and I'm only a trainsnerd by association.
*Post TMC meeting, I wound up chatting on the phone with Veronica for like 15-20 minutes, which was so so good. She is best!

Dance:
*TMC meeting! Whee! I cannot talk via the webex for undisclosed reasons, but Jen translated my typed comments for me.
*Wheeee Pinewoods work. I mean, fairly quiet and background, but it's happening.

Personal:
*Made significant progress on secret project DS2.0
*Made significant progress on secret project...need a code for this one. Hum. But yeah, this one too.
*I am full of aloo mattar and I am so happy about it.
**shrugs*
*Words I guess.

Self-motivation is currently at a huge fucking low. I'm pretty sure I'm officially in "Burnout" and should do some research about how one fixes that. I remember the end of last year being pretty much the same, just...done. Solidly and entirely and without any ability to do other things.

I want to catch back up with emails (neglected since Friday) and alllllll the other things in the world, but it's just really not there. Good gods, the grading alone!

Here's hoping you're more capable of Getting Things Done right now! <3

~Sor
MOOP!