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Pulled tarot today, for the first time in a long time. Mostly nonconclusive, which is to be expected when I don't bother to ritualize it. Might do it again before I leave for Atlanta, only properly wearing the charms of my goddesses.
Speaking of Tarot, there is a kickstarter for a Homestuck adventure game. For a mere 155$, I can receive a Homestuck tarot deck, with just beautiful art. This might be the only time it's ever sold. It's really frustrating to still be unemployed, because I just can't justify it without knowing I'll be able to make rent, but damn.
Although that reward tier is getting mad grabs, so maybe there's a chance for a run of the decks in the What Pumpkin store later. Fingers crossed that I haven't missed out forever. And if I have? Meh. Someday I will be able to support all the creative things I like. Look at how pragmatic I'm being. :|
(If you people try to buy this for me, I will actively be upset. I am weird about gifts and unlike bicycles, this is not at all a thing I need --I have both a tarot deck and beautiful things. Please don't. Someday I will introspect and figure out the gifts thing, but for now, please just don't make things worse.)
Speaking of Atlanta, I am about to vanish for a week in order to drive to Atlanta, and go to Alchemy. I'll be back next Tuesday. Yeah, basically I'm spending two-thirds of this month out of town. Buh. I have heaps of vague post ideas for the last few weeks, and very little self-discipline to write them out.
(Hey Sor. You know what would be a better idea than Homestuck shinies? Two more months of your meds! And given the way you parcel them out, that might even get you through the end of the year with some sort of actual fucking ability to get things done, 'cause it's not like you've any gorram motivation otherwise.)
More importantly, I've been damn busy, and I'd like to continue being damn busy, because damn busy means odd jobs or something, means money, means not having to leave Boston. And sometimes even food. Plus, with the added powers of tiny-pocket-computer-with-shit-keyoard, I bring Vera much fewer places than I used to. So yeah. Not really posting that much, _really_ not really writing that much. One of these bothers me more than the other.
***
Posts to write or something:
*Dragon*Con assessment/gratuitous photo post
**HEY SOR, ALL THOSE DRAGON*STUCK PHOTOS YOU HAVEN'T POSTED? YOU ARE BAD.
*Cross-country trip to Seattle, tentatively titled "So a Homestuck and a Bronie walk into a Car". This includes the story of how Brenton got reddit-famous, Cleveland is full of pigs, and damn is Montana a big fucking state. Also, Seattle.
*MARYLAND TRIP!
**Amanda Fucking Palmer concert, yes, I know.
**Veronica <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
**The Black Widow and the BIGGEST SPIDER
**LUNA GETS HITCHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!
**Seeing Koob again
**Being at a real Faire again, even if only for a couple hours
***Also, because this is apparently my life, there were Homestucks at the Faire. I'm actively thinking about bringing my Equius horns to Alchemy, because the chances that *someone* will recognize and appreciate is increasingly high. Luckily, Lemonsnout does the same thing and is much less fragile, plus, he now has a tiny toybag *and* a tiny flask. This is a terribrilliant idea.
**DianeCon, and getting an actual chance to game which like never happens anymore. Also the reason I have a harpy miniature sitting on my bookshelf glaring at me.
**I packed a lot into five days, okay?
*House ReWarming Party
*Something about gender, because there was a big shift and it so (is/is not) important but it makes everything easier and I don't know how to cope with it because it feels profoundly special snowflake and I just can't deal with being that sort of archetype.
**Of course, if I think too hard about anything, I am the queen of jackall special snowflakes. I hate my brain, a lot.
*There would be a cooking with cat ears post, except it turned into emowank, which is unfortunate. On the plus side, I made deviled eggs, all of which were eaten. So that's probably good.
*Something about my bicycle and the Katstarter status (if you have given me money and not told me what to draw, you should do the latter)
*Post about the current career status, and also talking some about the odd jobs game and why it's awesome and why it's terrifying.
*Social media, how to contact me (E-MAIL!) and how I use the sites I use.
I think that's everything percolating right now. I should get back to trying to pack for Alchemy.
Unrelated in all ways except that it's extremely relevant right now, a quote from a three year old: "Mommy, I'm trying to be happy, but it's really hard."
(But in trying to find that one, first in my quotefile I stumble across this one from ShadowCap, and it helps too: "accept the fact that you'll be unhappy -- possibly even really unhappy -- at least some of the time, and forgive yourself for being human."
I cannot help being human. I cannot help being fractured or flawed. Oh sure, some of it is my fault (though lots of it bears the touch of another) and I'm sure I could do a more efficient job healing were I to try in a more organized matter. But it doesn't matter. I am functional, and generally stable. There are things that scare me, but very little of them are internal.
And I continue to feel more in control of myself than a year ago. So far, the pattern holds true.)
Anyways. Packing, then dance, then packing, then early morning start and a loooooong drive to Atlanta. Ta!
~Sor
MOOP!
Speaking of Tarot, there is a kickstarter for a Homestuck adventure game. For a mere 155$, I can receive a Homestuck tarot deck, with just beautiful art. This might be the only time it's ever sold. It's really frustrating to still be unemployed, because I just can't justify it without knowing I'll be able to make rent, but damn.
Although that reward tier is getting mad grabs, so maybe there's a chance for a run of the decks in the What Pumpkin store later. Fingers crossed that I haven't missed out forever. And if I have? Meh. Someday I will be able to support all the creative things I like. Look at how pragmatic I'm being. :|
(If you people try to buy this for me, I will actively be upset. I am weird about gifts and unlike bicycles, this is not at all a thing I need --I have both a tarot deck and beautiful things. Please don't. Someday I will introspect and figure out the gifts thing, but for now, please just don't make things worse.)
Speaking of Atlanta, I am about to vanish for a week in order to drive to Atlanta, and go to Alchemy. I'll be back next Tuesday. Yeah, basically I'm spending two-thirds of this month out of town. Buh. I have heaps of vague post ideas for the last few weeks, and very little self-discipline to write them out.
(Hey Sor. You know what would be a better idea than Homestuck shinies? Two more months of your meds! And given the way you parcel them out, that might even get you through the end of the year with some sort of actual fucking ability to get things done, 'cause it's not like you've any gorram motivation otherwise.)
More importantly, I've been damn busy, and I'd like to continue being damn busy, because damn busy means odd jobs or something, means money, means not having to leave Boston. And sometimes even food. Plus, with the added powers of tiny-pocket-computer-with-shit-keyoard, I bring Vera much fewer places than I used to. So yeah. Not really posting that much, _really_ not really writing that much. One of these bothers me more than the other.
***
Posts to write or something:
*Dragon*Con assessment/gratuitous photo post
**HEY SOR, ALL THOSE DRAGON*STUCK PHOTOS YOU HAVEN'T POSTED? YOU ARE BAD.
*Cross-country trip to Seattle, tentatively titled "So a Homestuck and a Bronie walk into a Car". This includes the story of how Brenton got reddit-famous, Cleveland is full of pigs, and damn is Montana a big fucking state. Also, Seattle.
*MARYLAND TRIP!
**Amanda Fucking Palmer concert, yes, I know.
**Veronica <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
**The Black Widow and the BIGGEST SPIDER
**LUNA GETS HITCHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!
**Seeing Koob again
**Being at a real Faire again, even if only for a couple hours
***Also, because this is apparently my life, there were Homestucks at the Faire. I'm actively thinking about bringing my Equius horns to Alchemy, because the chances that *someone* will recognize and appreciate is increasingly high. Luckily, Lemonsnout does the same thing and is much less fragile, plus, he now has a tiny toybag *and* a tiny flask. This is a terribrilliant idea.
**DianeCon, and getting an actual chance to game which like never happens anymore. Also the reason I have a harpy miniature sitting on my bookshelf glaring at me.
**I packed a lot into five days, okay?
*House ReWarming Party
*Something about gender, because there was a big shift and it so (is/is not) important but it makes everything easier and I don't know how to cope with it because it feels profoundly special snowflake and I just can't deal with being that sort of archetype.
**Of course, if I think too hard about anything, I am the queen of jackall special snowflakes. I hate my brain, a lot.
*There would be a cooking with cat ears post, except it turned into emowank, which is unfortunate. On the plus side, I made deviled eggs, all of which were eaten. So that's probably good.
*Something about my bicycle and the Katstarter status (if you have given me money and not told me what to draw, you should do the latter)
*Post about the current career status, and also talking some about the odd jobs game and why it's awesome and why it's terrifying.
*Social media, how to contact me (E-MAIL!) and how I use the sites I use.
I think that's everything percolating right now. I should get back to trying to pack for Alchemy.
Unrelated in all ways except that it's extremely relevant right now, a quote from a three year old: "Mommy, I'm trying to be happy, but it's really hard."
(But in trying to find that one, first in my quotefile I stumble across this one from ShadowCap, and it helps too: "accept the fact that you'll be unhappy -- possibly even really unhappy -- at least some of the time, and forgive yourself for being human."
I cannot help being human. I cannot help being fractured or flawed. Oh sure, some of it is my fault (though lots of it bears the touch of another) and I'm sure I could do a more efficient job healing were I to try in a more organized matter. But it doesn't matter. I am functional, and generally stable. There are things that scare me, but very little of them are internal.
And I continue to feel more in control of myself than a year ago. So far, the pattern holds true.)
Anyways. Packing, then dance, then packing, then early morning start and a loooooong drive to Atlanta. Ta!
~Sor
MOOP!