Fuck the cult. I'm out.
Apr. 13th, 2012 11:17 amSo, this was the week where everything ramped up and got "oh holy fuck" ridiculous.
There's the Sparr thing, of course. There's some other relationship things, both old and new. There are manymany events in the recent past and near future. Oh, and there's the little fact that I'm quitting my job.
See, working at a horrible corporate hell was at least bearable. And then we lost the good boss, and got the incompetent, petty, and disorganized manager instead. I have spent the last four months in a low-level of hell, because I just can't...cope with what's going on anymore. The last straw came on a day when everything was horrible enough that I sensed divine intervention. I prayed to Athe to release me from the curse she'd wrapped me in, but it didn't slip until I realized that I was being told to get the fuck out, get the fuck out now, do not look back, do not collect 200 dollars.
I wish I could work in a corporate hell with![[profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
lex_of_green instead. But I am too weird for all my coworkers, and far too strange for my boss, and I can feel my soul, and everything that makes me wonderful, being crushed like so many dead leaves.
(Do you want any further evidence? My New Years Resolution this year was to average a thousand words a day. I'd be shocked if I've written more than thirty thou this year, total, and I have been trying. But if I can't write, then something is deeply wrong.)
I'm not particularly looking forward to the next few months, since I don't really have enough money to be quitting my job. But hopefully that'll be the impetus I need?
Anyways, I'm applying at less-crappy food service things (independently owned? Oh fucking hell yes please.) and summer school, and FREAKING OUT that there don't appear to be any real jobs for real mathematics teachers yet. Like, you know. September to June. School. Something I desperately need to land, and okay, maybe the vacancies just aren't up yet, but wow, is it terrifying being a grown-up.
Anyways, I'll work on this later --I've got applications to fill out at the moment. Ta!
~Sor
MOOP!
There's the Sparr thing, of course. There's some other relationship things, both old and new. There are manymany events in the recent past and near future. Oh, and there's the little fact that I'm quitting my job.
See, working at a horrible corporate hell was at least bearable. And then we lost the good boss, and got the incompetent, petty, and disorganized manager instead. I have spent the last four months in a low-level of hell, because I just can't...cope with what's going on anymore. The last straw came on a day when everything was horrible enough that I sensed divine intervention. I prayed to Athe to release me from the curse she'd wrapped me in, but it didn't slip until I realized that I was being told to get the fuck out, get the fuck out now, do not look back, do not collect 200 dollars.
I wish I could work in a corporate hell with
lex_of_green instead. But I am too weird for all my coworkers, and far too strange for my boss, and I can feel my soul, and everything that makes me wonderful, being crushed like so many dead leaves. (Do you want any further evidence? My New Years Resolution this year was to average a thousand words a day. I'd be shocked if I've written more than thirty thou this year, total, and I have been trying. But if I can't write, then something is deeply wrong.)
I'm not particularly looking forward to the next few months, since I don't really have enough money to be quitting my job. But hopefully that'll be the impetus I need?
Anyways, I'm applying at less-crappy food service things (independently owned? Oh fucking hell yes please.) and summer school, and FREAKING OUT that there don't appear to be any real jobs for real mathematics teachers yet. Like, you know. September to June. School. Something I desperately need to land, and okay, maybe the vacancies just aren't up yet, but wow, is it terrifying being a grown-up.
Anyways, I'll work on this later --I've got applications to fill out at the moment. Ta!
~Sor
MOOP!