![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
(no subject)
Oct. 28th, 2008 09:39 pm...Sigh.
There's a definite temptation to leave it off like that. Just "...Sigh." But that seems ill advised, truth to tell, and somewhere in the past few years, I grew up enough to know better than to make cryptic posts. (Well, almost well enough anyways.) At the very least, I've stopped making emo!cryptic posts, I think.
(And before you ask, no, I'm fine. Really. Or, to be accurate, I'm not anything positive right now, but I'm also not anything bad. I'm just a bit...blank. I actually know what's wrong with me right now, and it's not anything I can fix in any way other than being patient and waiting for the world to reorder itself again.)
And, as usual, it doesn't help that a lot of people surrounding me have been doing not-great right now. I don't know if it's the fluctuating weather, or the season, or Mercury still being in retrograde or what, but there's only so much I can do to help people from my side of the computer screen (or phone) and I get depressed when people I care about are depressed.
(I do think it's particularly wonderful that Swing picked up that I'm more than a bit of an empath at some point during AssassinsCon. He didn't use the exact term, but being able to read people's emotions, and hopefully be able to help them feel a bit better if they're down is one of the things I most pride myself on. The unfortunate side effect is that I tend to reflect emotions somewhat --if I am around extrodinarily cheerful people, I tend to get hyper and cheerful. If the people around me are sad, I reflect that, and get sad.)
Soyeah. Life. I feel occasionally like I ought to be making posts about what I've been up to, but then I remember that I lead a life that often seems to me to be more than a little boring. Perhaps I spend too much time holed up on my computer?
(Perhaps? Perhaps?! Oh, Rin darling, you're an idiot if you think you merely *perhaps* spend too much time on your computer. Though I feel obligated to point out that the problem is actually just that you spend the majority of your time on Vera on idle pursuits rather than actual productivity. Or, that is to say, too much solitaire, not enough writing, 'kthanks.)
But yes. What I've been up to lately includes:
*Rocky Horror on Saturday with Cec and Adam --afterwards, we walked to the corner store, bought too much food, and crashed in the lounge and ate and watched Mallrats. NTS: E-mail Leo re: pictures.
*SCD last night. I've pretty much officially moved up to the non-beginner class, because, well, I can keep up in there. Continuing to enjoy the hell out of myself.
*Calling Hypertwin Manor Monday afternoon, and spending a surprisingly awesome hour chatting with first Woozle, then Harena. (I say surprising just because they're both more than a little phonephobic, which leads to a slight awkward flow of conversation)
*Discovered that I have a secret buddy in the ways of babbling about gender and sexuality, yay yay YAY. (ie, Woozle)
*Skipped dance on Friday in order to just chill out at home, Skype with Tho and Rose, and webcam orgy with assorted people.
*School and stuff
*Probably other things?
Yeah. Like I said, probably not especially interesting.
Something's happened to me in the last month or so --I think it centers around Honk!, but being unsure of exactly what the change was makes it very difficult to pinpoint. All I know is that I've been staring at my life and realizing how...gods, I don't even know. The opposite of a life filled with zest and enthusiasm? Sedentary, maybe. I suppose that works, how sedentary it's been.
( Elaboration, or babbling. You decide! )
Soyeah. Life is really only as exciting as one makes it. I really quite want to make my life more exciting.
Ohhey. W/IFS soon, there's a plus. NTS: Buy ticket, dum-bass. Other NTS: Buy ticket to go see Vienna in December, or you *will* wind up pounding your head against the nearest wall
The only other thing I have to babble about is my sudden frenetic writing...thing, and I should probably do that in a different entry, as this one has turned out quite long. I'm sorry, I've never been good at not being overly verbose.
~Sor
MOOP!
There's a definite temptation to leave it off like that. Just "...Sigh." But that seems ill advised, truth to tell, and somewhere in the past few years, I grew up enough to know better than to make cryptic posts. (Well, almost well enough anyways.) At the very least, I've stopped making emo!cryptic posts, I think.
(And before you ask, no, I'm fine. Really. Or, to be accurate, I'm not anything positive right now, but I'm also not anything bad. I'm just a bit...blank. I actually know what's wrong with me right now, and it's not anything I can fix in any way other than being patient and waiting for the world to reorder itself again.)
And, as usual, it doesn't help that a lot of people surrounding me have been doing not-great right now. I don't know if it's the fluctuating weather, or the season, or Mercury still being in retrograde or what, but there's only so much I can do to help people from my side of the computer screen (or phone) and I get depressed when people I care about are depressed.
(I do think it's particularly wonderful that Swing picked up that I'm more than a bit of an empath at some point during AssassinsCon. He didn't use the exact term, but being able to read people's emotions, and hopefully be able to help them feel a bit better if they're down is one of the things I most pride myself on. The unfortunate side effect is that I tend to reflect emotions somewhat --if I am around extrodinarily cheerful people, I tend to get hyper and cheerful. If the people around me are sad, I reflect that, and get sad.)
Soyeah. Life. I feel occasionally like I ought to be making posts about what I've been up to, but then I remember that I lead a life that often seems to me to be more than a little boring. Perhaps I spend too much time holed up on my computer?
(Perhaps? Perhaps?! Oh, Rin darling, you're an idiot if you think you merely *perhaps* spend too much time on your computer. Though I feel obligated to point out that the problem is actually just that you spend the majority of your time on Vera on idle pursuits rather than actual productivity. Or, that is to say, too much solitaire, not enough writing, 'kthanks.)
But yes. What I've been up to lately includes:
*Rocky Horror on Saturday with Cec and Adam --afterwards, we walked to the corner store, bought too much food, and crashed in the lounge and ate and watched Mallrats. NTS: E-mail Leo re: pictures.
*SCD last night. I've pretty much officially moved up to the non-beginner class, because, well, I can keep up in there. Continuing to enjoy the hell out of myself.
*Calling Hypertwin Manor Monday afternoon, and spending a surprisingly awesome hour chatting with first Woozle, then Harena. (I say surprising just because they're both more than a little phonephobic, which leads to a slight awkward flow of conversation)
*Discovered that I have a secret buddy in the ways of babbling about gender and sexuality, yay yay YAY. (ie, Woozle)
*Skipped dance on Friday in order to just chill out at home, Skype with Tho and Rose, and webcam orgy with assorted people.
*School and stuff
*Probably other things?
Yeah. Like I said, probably not especially interesting.
Something's happened to me in the last month or so --I think it centers around Honk!, but being unsure of exactly what the change was makes it very difficult to pinpoint. All I know is that I've been staring at my life and realizing how...gods, I don't even know. The opposite of a life filled with zest and enthusiasm? Sedentary, maybe. I suppose that works, how sedentary it's been.
( Elaboration, or babbling. You decide! )
Soyeah. Life is really only as exciting as one makes it. I really quite want to make my life more exciting.
Ohhey. W/IFS soon, there's a plus. NTS: Buy ticket, dum-bass. Other NTS: Buy ticket to go see Vienna in December, or you *will* wind up pounding your head against the nearest wall
The only other thing I have to babble about is my sudden frenetic writing...thing, and I should probably do that in a different entry, as this one has turned out quite long. I'm sorry, I've never been good at not being overly verbose.
~Sor
MOOP!