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[sorcyress]

I...think I just had a nightmare.

I am lucky enough, blessed enough, that I do not get nightmares often.¹ Actually, this paired with this dream from the summer makes two in about eight months which is...a lot, for me. Luckily, this one does not have such a vivid imprint of what happened, instead, it has the lasting mental side effects, the clearest and worst of which is that I am right now decidedly touch-negative.

The really *really* impressive part of this, though, is that I can now legitimately say that Stevan Moffet has given me nightmares. There was a heavy sci-fi bend to the whole dream, and I think parts of it had the same feel as one of the scary episodes of Who. Other themes I remember? I was a prisoner, trying to escape and not yet good enough. I was being trained or watching someone be trained who was Just Not Good Enough to please her/my master. I...feel like there was an undercurrent of (sexual?) child abuse as well, as a feel, but I just don't remember well enough.

And yet, the traces fade. I think I am okay to go be held, and feel safe. Safety is, after all, key.

~Sor
MOOP!

1: I get disturbingly sexual dreams once in a while, which tend to leave me feeling off, but are not nightmares per se.

Comments

[tirerim.livejournal.com]

<gentle hug>. Safety is definitely good. Let me know if there's anything else I can do to help with that.

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

Thank you, and I don't think I have anything else. But thank you.

~Sor

Distressing Dream

[dhs.livejournal.com]

Oh dear.

*big hug reserved for when you are touch-positive again*

Re: Distressing Dream

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

Thank you. *hugsback*

~Sor

[harena.livejournal.com]

*kindof mumbles incoherently about abuse & safety as she snugs up against you*

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

*pets*

Thank you, Harena.

~Sor

[harena.livejournal.com]

Any time. You know it.

[kdsorceress.livejournal.com]

I do. I don't always remember it, but I know it.

~Sor