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Accomplishments
Today before therapy I printed out a little file of all the accomplishment posts I made this past week. I gave it to Jenn to show her what I've been up on and she immediately said "wow, this is so un-Kat-like!"
You have to hear this line with humour. I have learned that my therapist speaks in the same sarcasms and harshness that drip off my own tongue. I certainly laughed, and feel incredibly validated, rather than the insulted you might expect.
Anyways, I assured her that it was only meant to last a few days, and I was quite sure I'd be done with it soon. And we talked of other frivolous stuff and kinda reviewed the stuff and that was nice. Sometimes I think I like having a therapist just so I have a guaranteed audience for whatever inanities that go through my head, even if it's just 45 minutes a week. Anywho, my homework for next week is to do that task that's two weeks late. Also, once I get back my evidence file, I'm gonna bring it to side-boss Emily1 and ask her if it means I'm hired back, because that's less terrifying than directly asking main-boss Trish.
As to why I'm doing the accomplishment posts...because I haven't fucked it up yet? Because games work a very short time for me, so the longer I can keep them going before having to make a new game, the better? Because right now, this is the thing that's making me take a step back and try to think positively about the things I've done, which is not something I am naturally any good at. Perfectionism is a hell of a drug. You don't have to engage with them, and I'm trying to tag them --can you mute tags on Dreamwidth? Not sure.
So!
Accomplishments for today:
Work:
*The usual
*Got to school in time for the one (of four, sigh) students who assured me they would arrive by 7AM in order to make up a quiz who actually came before school. (one more managed during lunch and a third afterschool).
*Went to the Culture Committee focus group meeting and talked about overall frustrations with the school and things we want to see and the fact that it's fucking hard teaching equality and respect when there are other staff members who are fucking assholes. We were slightly less harsh in our language.
*Went to the PD mentioned in the other post and thought about grading and its role and its purpose and bluhhhgh teaching is fucking hard and being ethical and kind about it is harder.
*At squares, I managed to grade a big stack of Entrance Tickets, but I haven't entered them yet.
Therapy:
*Thrashing. I don't really feel like I accomplished anything this week, beyond sharing the accomplishment lists and wanking a bit about that. I don't know.
Social:
*I'm at squares where I'm mostly ignoring everyone in favour of doing grading, but I did get to cht with John-friend a bit at the beginning, and then just now while I was wordsing, Lotta came over and sat next to me and chatted
*Also I sat with Austin while he did gate and helped/got in the way and nuzzled at him and he interrupted my grading and I interrupted his bells studying and it was really good.
Personal:
*144 days of writing, which is 12 squared and that's a bunch. Also today is the end of April and that's the fourth month and that means I've written an entire third of the year without missing a day. I have less than a hundred days to go before I've broken my longest ever streak, which is the one I set in like...2011 or 2012 or something.
*The drop in dumb-phone-game happened to come right between classes, so I was able to get good numbers. Yay!
*I got to waltz with Austin during early-rounds and that was really nice and needed.
*Emmmmails. I now have no unread emails from April 2019. That's...phenomenal.
Still morose. Tomorrow will be different.
~Sor
MOOP!
1: I have a main-boss who is the head of the math department, but because I teach an SEI (Sheltered English Immersion) class, I also belong to the English Language Learners department and have a side-boss who is The Best. I mean, my main-boss is also pretty great, but seriously, my humour and enthusiasm and idealism and sarcasm all mesh _so well_ with my side-boss and I find her delightful.
You have to hear this line with humour. I have learned that my therapist speaks in the same sarcasms and harshness that drip off my own tongue. I certainly laughed, and feel incredibly validated, rather than the insulted you might expect.
Anyways, I assured her that it was only meant to last a few days, and I was quite sure I'd be done with it soon. And we talked of other frivolous stuff and kinda reviewed the stuff and that was nice. Sometimes I think I like having a therapist just so I have a guaranteed audience for whatever inanities that go through my head, even if it's just 45 minutes a week. Anywho, my homework for next week is to do that task that's two weeks late. Also, once I get back my evidence file, I'm gonna bring it to side-boss Emily1 and ask her if it means I'm hired back, because that's less terrifying than directly asking main-boss Trish.
As to why I'm doing the accomplishment posts...because I haven't fucked it up yet? Because games work a very short time for me, so the longer I can keep them going before having to make a new game, the better? Because right now, this is the thing that's making me take a step back and try to think positively about the things I've done, which is not something I am naturally any good at. Perfectionism is a hell of a drug. You don't have to engage with them, and I'm trying to tag them --can you mute tags on Dreamwidth? Not sure.
So!
Accomplishments for today:
Work:
*The usual
*Got to school in time for the one (of four, sigh) students who assured me they would arrive by 7AM in order to make up a quiz who actually came before school. (one more managed during lunch and a third afterschool).
*Went to the Culture Committee focus group meeting and talked about overall frustrations with the school and things we want to see and the fact that it's fucking hard teaching equality and respect when there are other staff members who are fucking assholes. We were slightly less harsh in our language.
*Went to the PD mentioned in the other post and thought about grading and its role and its purpose and bluhhhgh teaching is fucking hard and being ethical and kind about it is harder.
*At squares, I managed to grade a big stack of Entrance Tickets, but I haven't entered them yet.
Therapy:
*Thrashing. I don't really feel like I accomplished anything this week, beyond sharing the accomplishment lists and wanking a bit about that. I don't know.
Social:
*I'm at squares where I'm mostly ignoring everyone in favour of doing grading, but I did get to cht with John-friend a bit at the beginning, and then just now while I was wordsing, Lotta came over and sat next to me and chatted
*Also I sat with Austin while he did gate and helped/got in the way and nuzzled at him and he interrupted my grading and I interrupted his bells studying and it was really good.
Personal:
*144 days of writing, which is 12 squared and that's a bunch. Also today is the end of April and that's the fourth month and that means I've written an entire third of the year without missing a day. I have less than a hundred days to go before I've broken my longest ever streak, which is the one I set in like...2011 or 2012 or something.
*The drop in dumb-phone-game happened to come right between classes, so I was able to get good numbers. Yay!
*I got to waltz with Austin during early-rounds and that was really nice and needed.
*Emmmmails. I now have no unread emails from April 2019. That's...phenomenal.
Still morose. Tomorrow will be different.
~Sor
MOOP!
1: I have a main-boss who is the head of the math department, but because I teach an SEI (Sheltered English Immersion) class, I also belong to the English Language Learners department and have a side-boss who is The Best. I mean, my main-boss is also pretty great, but seriously, my humour and enthusiasm and idealism and sarcasm all mesh _so well_ with my side-boss and I find her delightful.
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No unread emails for April is GREAT. This is not sarcasm! I tend to leave emails unread if 1) I want to make sure to notice them soon or 2) they're not important but also not so boring it's an insta-delete, which means they stack up and it's really not great. I keep meaning to attack my email backlog, and... not doing it...
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OK, so I was vaguely aware that this was possible, but couldn't figure it out in 30 seconds, so now I've finally gotten off my butt to figure out how: https://www.dreamwidth.org/manage/subscriptions/filters
You can set up different reading pages with different subsets of the people, communities, and feeds you follow. But if you have a paid account, you can *also* add individual filtering for individual accounts. Details at the bottom of this post: https://www.dreamwidth.org/support/faqbrowse?faqid=76
So if someone wanted to do this, they would set up a filtered reading page that included all the people they wanted, then click
Here's an example of saying I don't want "airplane noise" posts from the davis_square community to show up in my "Not in feed reader" reading page: