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I am in a pretty serious "everything is terrible" right now space. Lots of reasons, but really, the big one is that "everything is terrible".
But you know what?
I am a stubborn-ass survivor. I am a fighter. I am too good for my brain to pull This Kind of Bullshit without lashing out wildly at it, just out of, you know, _spite_ or something.
So today, I lashed out by doing a little bit of room cleaning (mostly of the "put everything in piles to deal with later" variety) which resulted in a completely clean desktop (YES YES YES YES YES GOOD). And then, once I had my completely clean desktop (to stand on, natch), I realized I could finally put up the index card with the quote from K˚ that I made when he visited1.
But before I did, I remembered that I had been meaning for a couple weeks to make some more cards, mostly because I've been listening to a lot of s00j lately and she sings good yes2. So I sat down and did that, and then I put them all up, tucking them into the grid of the drop-ceiling and pinning them to the tiles.
That was about when I realized that I have some posters I've never found the opportunity or space to put up. And I still had all this leftover ceiling. Then after those were done, I realized that I could run ribbon through my collection of origami dodecahedrons and hang those up by my PHiZZ torii5. And then I realized I could take some of the insect fabric Sparr got me and hang it above my windows.
MY ROOM IS BEAUTIFUL AND I LOVE LIVING IN IT.
And that's gonna go a _lot_ towards coping with the fact that "everything is terrible".
Here is the current state of the index cards! I made eight new ones! Also, last time I was in Chicago, I found the original *hugs* card so I put that up too. This is a _very_ excellent thing to have done.
UpGoerFive! And also a poster that says "Prehistoric world" and has a bunch of DINOSAURS and DINOSAUR FACTS on it.
This isn't new, but if I'm showing off how great my room is, I should show off the hat-ceiling. This is faraway my favourite thing I have done in this room. It is a hella practical way to store them too, especially considering I don't wear most of them anywhere near as often as I would like to. (stupid bike helmet doesn't play nice with hats)
GOSH LOOK AT THEM! The two rainbow ones are hung together because I liked the balance, and then there's a rose one and a green/blue one and eeeeeeeeee!
Also, I am courting disaster by moving the dodecahedrons around, because of Deep Family Superstition. At least I'm not actively making any right now. ALTHOUGH MAYBE I SHOULD SINCE THEN THE T WOULD BE LESS FUCKED UP6?
And there is the insect curtain! On top of my regular curtains! Ignore the fact that the space between my bed and the windows is a massive awful mess right now. That's high on the list of Things To Make Better about my room. Instead, focus on how great that curtain is, and how cute it looks tied up like that and how awesome everything about me is.
My room feels less like a bedroom and more like a studio right now, and that's just about the best thing I could possibly do for my mental health, I do think.
~Sor
MOOP!
1: I keep index cards on the ceiling above my bed. You can see an original collection of them here.
You don't get to know what K˚ said to me that I found so significant unless you come to visit and I let you in my room and you get in a place where you can read all the cards and you figure out which one is from him. But I have been meaning to blog about it.
2: Reference post for where the phrasing "you sing good yes" comes from. I have gotten a little better at reconciling s00j-as-person with sooj-as-singergoddess. Gosh, I mean, I even waltzed with her3 last time I ran into her (at Balticon '12). Also, it has become a little more important to my life as a whole to complete that reconciliation. For, you know, reasons.
3: I can say of my bite that it's worse than my bark.4
4: You wanna know why I don't do subtlety? Because this is a simple example of the way I work. No one pays enough attention to follow this thread. That's intentional, only usually it matters, so I don't draw attention to it (or even do it in the first place).
5: Toruses?
6: Dodecahedrons are powerful. Like, do not mess with them they will fuck you up powerful. Building them is a good thing, destroying them is a TERRIBLE thing, and while they can affect all aspects of life, I believe they most strongly influence travel. Hence my musing that I could unfuck the T some by building more.
But you know what?
I am a stubborn-ass survivor. I am a fighter. I am too good for my brain to pull This Kind of Bullshit without lashing out wildly at it, just out of, you know, _spite_ or something.
So today, I lashed out by doing a little bit of room cleaning (mostly of the "put everything in piles to deal with later" variety) which resulted in a completely clean desktop (YES YES YES YES YES GOOD). And then, once I had my completely clean desktop (to stand on, natch), I realized I could finally put up the index card with the quote from K˚ that I made when he visited1.
But before I did, I remembered that I had been meaning for a couple weeks to make some more cards, mostly because I've been listening to a lot of s00j lately and she sings good yes2. So I sat down and did that, and then I put them all up, tucking them into the grid of the drop-ceiling and pinning them to the tiles.
That was about when I realized that I have some posters I've never found the opportunity or space to put up. And I still had all this leftover ceiling. Then after those were done, I realized that I could run ribbon through my collection of origami dodecahedrons and hang those up by my PHiZZ torii5. And then I realized I could take some of the insect fabric Sparr got me and hang it above my windows.
MY ROOM IS BEAUTIFUL AND I LOVE LIVING IN IT.
And that's gonna go a _lot_ towards coping with the fact that "everything is terrible".
Here is the current state of the index cards! I made eight new ones! Also, last time I was in Chicago, I found the original *hugs* card so I put that up too. This is a _very_ excellent thing to have done.
UpGoerFive! And also a poster that says "Prehistoric world" and has a bunch of DINOSAURS and DINOSAUR FACTS on it.
This isn't new, but if I'm showing off how great my room is, I should show off the hat-ceiling. This is faraway my favourite thing I have done in this room. It is a hella practical way to store them too, especially considering I don't wear most of them anywhere near as often as I would like to. (stupid bike helmet doesn't play nice with hats)
GOSH LOOK AT THEM! The two rainbow ones are hung together because I liked the balance, and then there's a rose one and a green/blue one and eeeeeeeeee!
Also, I am courting disaster by moving the dodecahedrons around, because of Deep Family Superstition. At least I'm not actively making any right now. ALTHOUGH MAYBE I SHOULD SINCE THEN THE T WOULD BE LESS FUCKED UP6?
And there is the insect curtain! On top of my regular curtains! Ignore the fact that the space between my bed and the windows is a massive awful mess right now. That's high on the list of Things To Make Better about my room. Instead, focus on how great that curtain is, and how cute it looks tied up like that and how awesome everything about me is.
My room feels less like a bedroom and more like a studio right now, and that's just about the best thing I could possibly do for my mental health, I do think.
~Sor
MOOP!
1: I keep index cards on the ceiling above my bed. You can see an original collection of them here.
You don't get to know what K˚ said to me that I found so significant unless you come to visit and I let you in my room and you get in a place where you can read all the cards and you figure out which one is from him. But I have been meaning to blog about it.
2: Reference post for where the phrasing "you sing good yes" comes from. I have gotten a little better at reconciling s00j-as-person with sooj-as-singergoddess. Gosh, I mean, I even waltzed with her3 last time I ran into her (at Balticon '12). Also, it has become a little more important to my life as a whole to complete that reconciliation. For, you know, reasons.
3: I can say of my bite that it's worse than my bark.4
4: You wanna know why I don't do subtlety? Because this is a simple example of the way I work. No one pays enough attention to follow this thread. That's intentional, only usually it matters, so I don't draw attention to it (or even do it in the first place).
5: Toruses?
6: Dodecahedrons are powerful. Like, do not mess with them they will fuck you up powerful. Building them is a good thing, destroying them is a TERRIBLE thing, and while they can affect all aspects of life, I believe they most strongly influence travel. Hence my musing that I could unfuck the T some by building more.