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Tonight was the BIG co-chair push to get things ready for Pinewoods. I checked with Laurie as we were packing up to bring me home, and I think I am officially done with before-camp co-chair work1. We sent emails, stuffed packets, checked job and house assignments, complimented each others work, played with the baby, ate pizza, and fired ideas back and fourth as one big glorious messy disjoint brain. It was a lot of fun!
I’m really really gratified that I wound up with these two as my co-chairs —Laurie and Ellen are both lovely, talented, interesting people. The three of us play to each others strengths marvelously, and we’ve gotten so much Pinewoods stuff done with so little drama or hurt feelings that it almost feels like a miracle. Plus, and this is no small thing, Laurie is one of those people who consistently gets my pronouns right. It’s…so refreshing to be in spaces with (mostly) cishets where they still do a good job of that2.
So yeah, there’s been A LOT of work to do over the past year, and we have risen to the occasion, taken it on, and almost totally slain the dragon. We are all three looking forward to the post-Pinewoods summer months, when there’s very little for us to do before it all starts again next year, but I think we’re also all three looking forward to camp itself, and a chance to play and have fun and help run this beautiful space of ours.
I’m proud of us. I’m proud of myself. It’s hard to remember sometimes the amount of really impressive work I have done and can do, because it “doesn’t count” if it’s just volunteering. But my graphic design chops are not poor —seriously, the dude at the print shop dropped in a “yeah, it looks like you know what you’re doing” about my design. My social negotiation skills are frightening even to me sometimes. I’ve helped throw together more than one serious budget, although admittedly this is the first one that’s broken 50k.
And I can stuff packets and assemble buttons and chase after people to do their jobs and make announcements in a tone of voice that makes people listen and laugh, and yes it’s a little annoying that people complain to me that I’m not the dining hall manager anymore, but it definitely comes from a place of love and acknowledgement that I’m actually a pretty fricking good manager. It’s a pity I have zero interest in upward momentum at my job, I’d probably be a great department head if I put my mind towards it. But then I wouldn’t get to work with students anymore.
I can do a lot of cool things, and if I filled out a resume or portfolio with only the stuff I’d done for volunteering, I’d still look pretty fucking hirable. I love this hobby, I love it enough to learn all the unlovable parts around it, to do the largely-thankless work, to Get It Done because when I look at it I see that _someone_ has to do it and if no one else steps up fast enough it might as well be me. And when I’m there, I’ll do a pretty decent job of things.
Pinewoods is gonna be awesome. I still need to finish one costume and write my packing list and do two more loads of laundry and work out what bags everything goes in and and and, but it’s all doable and so soon on the horizon.
I like who and what and where I am.
~Sor
MOOP!
1: This does not, of course, even begin to mean I’m done with before-camp work. *stares forlornly at their packing list*
2: Do you know how much I love my bellsfam? I really love my bells fam, and the fact that so many people at bells call me they and it just ain’t no thing.
I’m really really gratified that I wound up with these two as my co-chairs —Laurie and Ellen are both lovely, talented, interesting people. The three of us play to each others strengths marvelously, and we’ve gotten so much Pinewoods stuff done with so little drama or hurt feelings that it almost feels like a miracle. Plus, and this is no small thing, Laurie is one of those people who consistently gets my pronouns right. It’s…so refreshing to be in spaces with (mostly) cishets where they still do a good job of that2.
So yeah, there’s been A LOT of work to do over the past year, and we have risen to the occasion, taken it on, and almost totally slain the dragon. We are all three looking forward to the post-Pinewoods summer months, when there’s very little for us to do before it all starts again next year, but I think we’re also all three looking forward to camp itself, and a chance to play and have fun and help run this beautiful space of ours.
I’m proud of us. I’m proud of myself. It’s hard to remember sometimes the amount of really impressive work I have done and can do, because it “doesn’t count” if it’s just volunteering. But my graphic design chops are not poor —seriously, the dude at the print shop dropped in a “yeah, it looks like you know what you’re doing” about my design. My social negotiation skills are frightening even to me sometimes. I’ve helped throw together more than one serious budget, although admittedly this is the first one that’s broken 50k.
And I can stuff packets and assemble buttons and chase after people to do their jobs and make announcements in a tone of voice that makes people listen and laugh, and yes it’s a little annoying that people complain to me that I’m not the dining hall manager anymore, but it definitely comes from a place of love and acknowledgement that I’m actually a pretty fricking good manager. It’s a pity I have zero interest in upward momentum at my job, I’d probably be a great department head if I put my mind towards it. But then I wouldn’t get to work with students anymore.
I can do a lot of cool things, and if I filled out a resume or portfolio with only the stuff I’d done for volunteering, I’d still look pretty fucking hirable. I love this hobby, I love it enough to learn all the unlovable parts around it, to do the largely-thankless work, to Get It Done because when I look at it I see that _someone_ has to do it and if no one else steps up fast enough it might as well be me. And when I’m there, I’ll do a pretty decent job of things.
Pinewoods is gonna be awesome. I still need to finish one costume and write my packing list and do two more loads of laundry and work out what bags everything goes in and and and, but it’s all doable and so soon on the horizon.
I like who and what and where I am.
~Sor
MOOP!
1: This does not, of course, even begin to mean I’m done with before-camp work. *stares forlornly at their packing list*
2: Do you know how much I love my bellsfam? I really love my bells fam, and the fact that so many people at bells call me they and it just ain’t no thing.
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~Sor