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Content Warning: Street harassment
Would you like to know a fucked up thing about me? It is this: I actually feel vaguely wrong / "not good enough" when I hear women talk about being catcalled or groped on the subway and compare that against my own life.
Because I don't very often. Oh absolutely, I have my stories (#YesAllWomen, even the occasional ones) and doubleplus absolutely, I don't *want* this to happen to me. But it makes me feel vaguely undesirable sometimes when I realize other people get catcalled all the time. Like, am I not good enough? Am I not pretty enough to sexually assault?
Pretty royally, fuck every societal piece of bullshit that casts these threads into my mind. I am *glad* that my small tits and no makeup and tomboy clothes and obliviousness1 and maybe even a touch of the good ol' resting bitch face keep me from being harassed more. I truly am. I wish everyone could have closer to my experience than to a friend of mine who was saying she'd love to take the T to work every day, but hates getting groped twice a week.
(I wish everyone could just...have an experience where we can exist in public spaces without being threatened, but, you know. Small steps.)
But I also wish it didn't feel like such a failure of femininity that I somehow (mostly) get a pass.
~Sor
MOOP!
1: I am quite sure this is no small part of it --I strive for a certain level of active obliviousness towards other people when I'm on my bike or the T. "if I don't notice you leering at me, I can't be upset about it" sort of thing. So I'm sure there have been rude comments that I honestly didn't hear (the only advantage I've ever found of the auditory LD!).
Content Warning: Street Harassment
Would you like to know a fucked up thing about me? It is this: I actually feel vaguely wrong / "not good enough" when I hear women talk about being catcalled or groped on the subway and compare that against my own life.
Because I don't very often. Oh absolutely, I have my stories (#YesAllWomen, even the occasional ones) and doubleplus absolutely, I don't *want* this to happen to me. But it makes me feel vaguely undesirable sometimes when I realize other people get catcalled all the time. Like, am I not good enough? Am I not pretty enough to sexually assault?
Pretty royally, fuck every societal piece of bullshit that casts these threads into my mind. I am *glad* that my small tits and no makeup and tomboy clothes and obliviousness1 and maybe even a touch of the good ol' resting bitch face keep me from being harassed more. I truly am. I wish everyone could have closer to my experience than to a friend of mine who was saying she'd love to take the T to work every day, but hates getting groped twice a week.
(I wish everyone could just...have an experience where we can exist in public spaces without being threatened, but, you know. Small steps.)
But I also wish it didn't feel like such a failure of femininity that I somehow (mostly) get a pass.
~Sor
MOOP!
1: I am quite sure this is no small part of it --I strive for a certain level of active obliviousness towards other people when I'm on my bike or the T. "if I don't notice you leering at me, I can't be upset about it" sort of thing. So I'm sure there have been rude comments that I honestly didn't hear (the only advantage I've ever found of the auditory LD!).
Content Warning: Street Harassment