I know how you feel. 2 years ago I tried to kill myself and ended up in rehab for a while. I just felt irreparably broken. But two years later with some amazing friends (including Sparr) and now therapy, I don't think I've ever been so happy. I still have bad days, like today I feel really down for no particular reason. But I know it's a temporary feeling and I'm a good person. So there's hope for you too. *hugs*